I was really surprised at how furious I became at my radiation oncologist this week over things that ordinarily would be dealt with calmly. It made me realize how much anger I carry around over this diagnosis, and how much TLC I need. I also realize something that is probably obvious to everyone else here, and should have been obvious to me; you have to process your feelings instead of compartmentalizing them as I have been doing. I have a great deal of loving support in my life, but until now have been reluctant to share too much. I think I was afraid that if I did share my feelings about PC that it would unload a flood of uncontrollable feelings.