I am not sure if this is an appropriate venue but I want to get it off my chest. Apologies if it is not appropriate. I will delete if asked.
I am truly sexually versatile but have not been a bottom in a very long time. Most sex with men has been mutual masturbation and only occasionally topping.
To prepare for the possible post surgery ED I have been doing a lot of masturbation alone and at a bate club (use it or lose it).
However nowadays with the surgery looming all I can think of is that I would like to get fucked at least once beforehand.
I guess it’s just part of the anxiety speaking.
Thanks for letting me get this off my chest. I hope it’s OK.