I hope you are all keeping well.
I have been away for the reason of the resit and now completed the loneliness and isolation is setting in
I have been reading HU whilst away and many do provide support for one another .
The worry of COVID never goes away
Today I was out walking in the fresh air and people vaping as I was walking
It is at times like this I wish I could escape but until the vaccine is available for the priority groups , we have to endure the worry of COVID
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Hi Roukaya,
I was thinking about chasing you up this morning, to try to find out how your exam went, I hope it was good.
Hope you are also staying strong with your mother, and ignoring your Auntie. (did she get to Mauritius for the wedding?) If so I hope she is still out there in isolation. I don't know if flights have been stopped from there.
Well, I hope you are staying well. It's getting depressing now because its been so long.
Cheers, Midori
Good evening I hope you are well
I think I find the loneliness of lockdown very alienating
It is hard
I have stopped keeping in touch with my two Aunties who have said that I am on my own and I have no one
They have aggravated my anxiety so I have decided to keep away
I hope you are ok
My anxiety has got worse due to the exam and the worry of COVID with Lockdown
All we can do is wait for the vaccine
Hope the resit went well. I think everyone is really fed up with this lockdown as the weather makes it more difficult to get out and about enjoyably and people seem to look so miserable. Take care.x
Good evening I hope you are well
The resit was hard but I have a very good course tutor who herself has tried to coach me
I hope you are keeping well
The weather is cold and miserable this is why so many people are unhappy
These are very difficult times and to exercise patience is key
That sounds good as far as your exam is concerned kind of her to do that. I have just been out to feed our Tropical fish, they are in a separate little room off our utility and it is really freezing out there. If I could have fitted in the tank I would have jumped in there with them, as their water is kept at about 82 degrees Fahrenheit, lol.x
Same here in cardiff everyone looks so miserable as well!
On Wednesday after I was upset and had gone out for fresh air to calm down and get my fish and chip lunch I had planned I had been worried in case I would be told to cheer up but I needn't have worried as when I was in the shopping streets more people looked miserable than not which was good as it wasn't like I was the only one feeling like that!
I love fish and chips hope they cheered you up. In the shops with the masks on you would think you couldn't gauge peoples mood but it is amazing how much peoples eyes give away. Apart from walking our dog I only go to the shops now for top-ups or our prescriptions. We have had a stark warning from our GP's today to say that the rate of COVID is dangerously high in our area and to stay in. They have been good with updating us on various things and sites to go on for more information but since the virus came we have never had such a blunt warning. I am going to do something positive tonight. Have a shower and wash my hair, get into some PJ's and settle and fluffy bed socks to keep out the cold and settle down with a good book. Take care.x
Nowadays I only go to the shops if I need to be there otherwise I don't bother and I did enjoy my fish and chips from a different shop as my usual one is closed until Monday and I was disappointed when I got there and found that out but decided to see if the other one nearby was open and if it wasn't the world wouldn't end but it was so I went there instead.
What it was that had upset me whilst I had gone out for fresh air mid morning at the little park was the groups hanging around there because it reminded me of how I miss the in person company of my own friends which is how the anger and resentment arose!
We do regular phone and video calls though but its not the same as in person visits and on last nights call I had said about that and they said how absolutely anything can bring up feelings of anger and resentment even say you really fancy say a rotisserie chicken for dinner one night you go to the supermarket and they have sold out and how that can bring on anger and resentment because you had really fancied it and its not happening!
Nowadays in this house there's no buying things you fancy like that unless its to stock up when we have run out of food and have what's in the cupboards or fridge making do with that!
I remember back in April when the local shop had no eggs and it had brought on anger and resentment as there was no need for that to have happened that stupid panic buying fiasco so I had gone somewhere else and got them there instead.
Its what the things represent I feel which brings on the anger and resentment rather than them themselves.
I think the anger or resentment is a triggerI have had several of those this week
I have been away but back now as I could do with company
Nice to see you back!
I wonder how you are I can well understand your resentment at the irresponsible behaviour of others
I went out yesterday to do some food shopping and I normally walk to town
I wore a mask and kept a distance but a few were vaping as it was outside
I think this is terribly annoying and the govt needs to enforce stricter rules and accelerate the vaccines
Totally understand I call it the straw that breaks the camels back. It is as though all the small things that have happened suddenly all mount up and then we wonder why we have a surge of anger about something that probably in more normal times wouldn't bother us but it is just things mounting up. I saw a lovely couple with their great big gentle dog that we used to see each day on our walks. We had missed them and I was so pleased to see them as I had convinced myself that they must be ill as they don't have good health. He said they no longer walked their dog on the park as there were a group of dog walkers breaking the rules which made them so mad as two of them had had COVID but they now seemed to think they were invincible and as the others in the group hadn't caught it they now thought they were immune. They used to walk around together as their dogs got on but they said the sight of them now made them so angry they could no longer enjoy their walk there. They said how much they had always enjoyed the socially distanced chats with everyone but no more it seemed so sad just because a group can't go by the rules.x
Back in August I had an angry reaction when I found out my family had got together for my sisters birthday and I wasn't asked if I wanted to go or not but didn't lash out!
Back in September we had just resumed face to face socialising only to find out that the door was going to get slammed in our faces when local lockdowns were announced and that stupid this morning program had set off a round of tears and anger and resentment when they claimed Christmas was cancelled and the Friday of that week I had to cancel a job interview as I was crying so much and had asked could we rebook and was told no and my friends said I had dodged a bullet as I had seen their true colours when that happened!
Another of my friends said how losses build up over time and how that silly this morning program for me had been the final blow that had brought on the anger and tears and how no losses are silly and trivial as those cancelled things were events that were important to me.
Wednesday after the park I had ended up crying over job hunting feeling like it wasn't fair and had felt better after going out in the fresh air and getting fish and chips from a different shop to the usual one as it was shut.
Recently I had an invite to an interview and they had said on the invite no other dates were going to be considered and I had thought I'm not playing that game again so went out for fresh air and had a think of whether to go or not and I decided not if they are going to be like that so I got back to them and declined the invite saying I was no longer interested in the job.
Good evening I hope you are well
I sat the paper yesterday but I know I tried very hard
I find that I am becoming quite frightened when I go out
I wear the mask and sansitize but today after days of being indoors I became scared as others were exhaling smoke through vaping but this was outdoors
I think just to wait patiently for the vaccine and hopefully begin to look ahead instead of living in fear
I feel that we will appreciate our holidays and freedom more when we can get out and about again.
We decided not to book any holidays for this year at present and wait until things become more settled.
Tuesday the city centre was deserted when I went to bute park and it's weird seeing the place deserted and our local shopping street on Wednesday was as well over the lunchtime from what it usually is.
Hello Roukaya I have missed you I hope that your doing well ☺️❤️
Inshallah I hope you are ok
I did a resit exam yesterday and now I am starting to feel worried and tired
❤️❤️ don’t worry I am sure that you did great ☺️
Good evening I hope you are well
I know I did my best but this is my fifth attempt
I passed the other exam in September
I find my anxiety and loneliness hard at times to cope with
I understand How you feel ❤️
I would like to even though I am a Muslim I live on my own and I am away from my Mother If I was married with children may be I would not feel so lonely or isolated
As you are with your family may be unless one day you live alone you could see at times how hard it is
Just saying hi and nice to know you are back. How did your exams go and when will you get the results? Like you, we are all feeling down and fed up but if we let negative feelings take over its not going to help our well being. I've tried to find ways of overcoming this by making just one or two small goals to a achieve each day. One particular goal is to ensure I take a daily walk in the fresh air. I always feel better for doing it a nd feel more able to do other things when I return.Out of interest I was wondering if you have a garden where you live. I ask as I'm interested in wildlife and there is something called.... The Big Bird Watch. It means we each observe the different birds that visit our garden and record the number over a set time each day. Something like 15 or 30 minutes. I wondered if you may be interested in doing something like this when you have a sad moment. I do it each year and really enjoy it. I think it is in about 10 days time. You can find out about it on line and they will send you a pack free of charge. Please think about it. It may help with the long dark days.
Best wishes for now.
Good evening I hope you are keeping well
I think I spent the last few months preparing for the resit and now to wait for the results
I think the loneliness and anxiety is affecting me
I do not have a garden as I live in a flat which I am hoping to sell in the near future
I wish I had a garden ad this could be such a good outlet
You have been very kind and understanding and today I had a shock as I was out people in the outdoors vaping
Not nice
Also my Mother can be quite demanding but I actually employed a Psychotherapist for two seasons before the exam as my Mother takes a lot of my energy
I hope you are keeping well
I will try to go out but I did today and was triggered by the people outdoors vaping
Nice to see you posting again, I hope your exam went well. When will you know the result?
I had to go out today to collect an emergency prescription and the roads were even more busy than pre lockdown. Unbelievable.
Good evening I hope you are well
The resit was very similar to papers I had done before but I was under great pressure to complete on time
But it would seem my anxiety is getting worse
I have not been out for a long time and I was outdoors people are vaping as I was walking outdoors
All of this adds to my level of anxiety
I hope you are ok
The results due in three weeks but the course tutor had been very supportive to me and encouraging in the resit
I know I did what I could
I hope you are ok
You can only do your best. I'm sorry your anxiety is bad again. My doctor was saying yesterday she is seeing a huge increase in poor mental health and people panicking about minor health problems. Not helped by the fact they are only really offering telephone appointments. I'm not doing so well so far this year I'm afraid. Maybe try to go for a walk when fewer people will be around if it's a safe area.
Hi Roukaya
I hope the resist went well.
I agree the worry of COVID doesn't go away but as long as we keep ourselves safe then it'll lessen the spread even more.
There are many others on here on their own and as you say many do support one another, I hope you can take some comfort in that.
We will beat this virus but in the meantime have to stay safe.
Take care and stay safe and well.
Alicia xx
Hello just wanted to say hi but my times limited and I have to go so take care Nd soon we will have vaccine my mam gets hers next week hugs from Mandy and pixiebob💝🐆🌷🤗🌟xxxx
Thank you
Hi. Nice to hear from you. I do hope you get the results that you want. I apologise as I can't write any more now due to brain injury fatigue, just wanted to wish you well. 🙂🌸
I (in the States) was fortunate to receive the first of two Pfizer vaccinations on 7 January; the second is scheduled for 28 January. The uncertainty here seems to be that the state (North Carolina) cannot inform my county from week to week how much vaccine will be sent down, which complicates planning. Currently persons 75 and over are receiving the vaccine; next week those 65 and over will be eligible . Appointments are required. Under three hours from the announcement last time, all available time slots were filled.I am fervently hoping for better conditions there and here. Keep as strong as you can; don’t go down quietly!
I'm keeping my fingers crossed that you've passed your exam (I'm sure you have)
As you probably know I live on my own and it's difficult because the Internet, TV, radio is filled with covid related articles, but we're advised to only go out when necessary, I'm going out about twice a week, and I'm finding it really difficult because although I like being on my own I'd like to see something different, or different shops, but it'll happen when we've had our vaccines look after yourself 😊
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