The last of 12 siblings, no one else was afflicted in my family with ADHD. My parents took me to doctor when I was about 10. He diagnosed me as having epilepsy and made me take meds for that. Then when I was 13 my parents separated and shortly after one of my older brothers was killed. My parents got back together but shipped me off to live with an older brother or older sister. I was being shuffled. Nobody noticed that I wasn't attending school, and there u have it. Oh yeah I found jobs alright and was a good worker and good liar. I even became a supervisor for a long time. No one ever guessed that I never learned how to read or write. Now, I am 58. 2 divorces behind me. 3 grown kids that I passed this onto, but got correct medication for them and they are smart as heck. But I was always working and too busy to focus on getting treated myself. So during my busy world I found street drugs helped my concentration. So I am a real mental and emotional mess. So much I didn't learn and I can't find the patience for doctors to experiment and find the right drug for me. I'm lost. Victor
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It sounds as though you have muddled through life. It's good your children got the right treatment and are doing well. Now it's time to concentrate on you. If you feel in such a mess it's time to do something about. I know you say you have know patience with your GP but he's going to be able to prescribe the medications you need. This is a supportive community so we help each other. Jerry our Moderator listed some helpline numbers. Maybe take a look in case any might be useful for you. 🙂
Hi Victor,
I can tell that you feel as if you are in a really bad place right now. It might be especially bad because of the world crisis we are all in. It gives us all too much time to think about what's wrong with our lives.
Well, at least you have got yourself to the age of 58, having done all you could for your kids, and that's a huge achievement, so kudos to you for that, to begin with.
You've found yourself in a complex situation and you say you want help to climb out of it, but in order to do that you have to start somewhere. It's probably all a bit overwhelming. Why not spend a bit of time writing out a list, as you laid out in your post, of the things which you don't like about your life.
Then write yourself a statement to the effect that you are going to start working on it all. And then see if you can somehow summon up the strength just to try to find the patience to see a doctor and ask for help.
It might be a long and difficult road to get to where you want to go, but the longest journey has to start with a single step forward. If it's hard to blurt out all that you need to say, all you need to say to a doctor to start the process is "Doctor, I need help". And that will open up a conversation.
I promise you that having the courage to take that one step will make you feel a little better, and then you can build on it, day by day.
Wishing you the strength and courage to go forward, and very best wishes.
I'm so sorry you have had such a tough life and can't even think to understand what it was like for you to be shuffled from pillar to post so to speak.
Well done to you though getting the right treatment for your children, the condition is understood more now. I'm a couple of years older than you and as a child you never heard of ADHD or even Autism, they were conditions where people just thought you were naughty.
Now it's time to concentrate on yourself and seek help, there's a lot more understanding now. Time to be kind to yourself.
I'm glad you've posted on this group as there is a lot of support.
A happier future is there for you.
Look after yourself, you are important.
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