only new here and I'm wondering if anyone is in the same boat as me or similar.
Basically I have two children a 5and a half year old and a just gone one year old, both boys. I suffer with sever postnatal depression and have done in the past. I had a very very hard pregnancy last year and started developing several issues about myself. I had a horrible traumatic birth and have had councilling sessions ever since. I have a very fussy baby who doesn't seem to enjoy eating its so strange because he used to love food and now he spits everything I try back out I am really sleep deprived as he gets up all through the night and my days start at 5, I try my best to stay calm but I struggle and always feel like I'm angry all the time. I didn't bond with my baby for a while which was heartbreaking because I knew that's what was happening, my relationship with the father has broken down also so I've been struggling and felt let down there too. I feel hopeless as a parent as I feel my baby isn't happy or is never settled. My ex always sees the light in everything and has always thought I worry over everything, and with depression it can't be helped of course. I'm wondering if any other parents feel the same?? . I have days where I feel so low and just want to feel happy. I don't have anyone who really understands postnatal depression.