i am writing today because i am in severe emotional and physical pain, and i need help and i know you all will understand. months ago my ob/gyn said my pelvic floor was in severe spasm and she also suspected endo. i had a lap and she didnt find anything. i was relieved, but i have seen that some women had several laps before their endo was found, and i feel like its possible that may happen with me. i just recently started pelvic floor physical therapy.
to back up: there is a correlation betweeen the pain and anxiety. it all stems from my miscarriage. it was in 2011, and i am still grieving and it has turned my life upside down. ever since then, i have an anxiety attack every time i have anything done in the pelvic area. i really think i may have PTSD in addition to grief.
i just had my 2nd pt session. today she did the internal exam, and i am having severe spasms. the worst is in the levator ani- its so spasmed that there is actually a ridge there. she gave that and other areas an 8 out of 10. it was incredibly painful. i am still in horrible pain even after taking my pain meds, and it was very upsetting emotionally...
i know that some of you have done pelvic floor pt. i am wondering about your experiences and also if any of you have been affected emotionally by it. i am also writing i think because i am so sad and i just feel really upset and alone.. thank you so much for listening and for how supportive and caring you all are.