I have had pn 8 years now and I have hit the end point---I can take no more----do not offer any suggestions for there is nothing I have not done---I am in excruciating pain now that never stops---I am venting.---I can not lay, stand, walk, have spinal injury too. Proiblem with family right now on how much I hurt them, so I cannot talk about my pain. They are good bit do not get it asfter all thisd timer.
At the end of the line with pain everywhetre but worst rectally and vaginally I ammbeing scorched and trapped between caregivers who know nothing of what I live. I use God and beg to die but he does not want me either--judtv spent three vdays in hospital to get some pain control and then home to the same life of hell. This will be dropped tomorrow but right now I cannot keep going. I want to go out and vwalk--walk-and never stopm till I drop over. I am sorry to dump this on all of you who suffer too. Enough is enough! I am homebound Just pray I never wake up. I am a coward I know that but I am at the end of my rope---bring peace to everyone if I were gone. Losing my hearing more and more, blind in one eye. Lost bladder and bowel. now leg from broken hip. Please just PRAY for me! Love you all !