It is all so evil cause even though i found a cure for my specific PNE but it has been willfully denied to me.... It is much much worse than having PNE and dying with not knowing there was a cure... I have been kept intentionally in this torture chamber just cause of the medical politics that are a perfect storm for this decade that i have been brutally crippled....
This hell is just so ridiculously cruel i just want it to end... Even though i went through insane hell and found a cure it doesnt matter to this medical community... It is cruel and unusual torment beyond the the reach of comprehension... It is so rare for a PNE patient to get healed but the fact that I found the exact spine nerve root that controls ONLY the entraping muscles and being Denied again and again the right to be cured is so insane I should be a raving lunatic... but i am not... Comprehending a decade of Enforced torture due to medical politics is such a evil curse i have been forced to bear.... I wish my neighbor hadnt found me near death a year ago and taken me to the ER... I posted that experience here and the Universe was basically telling me everything was alright and that my torture was at a end and then I was forced back into this Fight at that evil ER... I wish i could leave my body to medical research for this condition but we dont get that right like cancer and other deadly disease victims... We are victims of a whole other order of magnitude.... pitiful beyond these doctor's ability to fathom.... The Depth and Measure of Injustice is a Black Abyss.... I just want to go to the light and refuge from pain that i saw a year ago..... It was a beautiful release from this horrid mortal coil that i am trapped in.... It was a real shame i was brought back just for another year of sorrows.... I just want that freedom i had a fleeting glimpse of... Since my cure is being forcefully withheld from me I want to lay down this impossible burden.....