Hi all,
I am grateful for this community. I am 2 years in to my PBC dx and find so much help and information here. I got dx just as I retired from high stress exec level job. The fatigue is my biggest challenge. I find that I am reluctant to commit to things that require friends to get tickets etc.. because I fear I won't be "up to it". And what if I have to cancel? Ugh..
This weekend I went to a concert. I really had to push to get through it... I didn't want to cancel on my friends and more importantly- I need that social time with people- especially people that care. But yesterday and today I am paying the price for pushing myself.. it's a tricky balance of pushing to do things sometimes and weighing the benefits..
I know it could be worse, (thank God I don't have to work) but the fatigue and accepting limits -- well at times it still gets me down... not knowing "how I will feel"
I am sure you all know what I mean.
last week I had to drive 5 hours to St. Louis to see a hand surgeon for another disease I have (DuPuytren's contracture). Thank God my fatigue wasn't horrible for those 2 days-I was able to get there and back without major problem.. I have so much to be grateful for (and I am). I want to live fully present in the "now" and do as much as I can at 65... still have dreams and schemes!
Love and hugs to all.