The operation was a success, so I should be pleased, but no, I feel lost and cheated. I hate the fact that I can't have more babies even though I didn't plan to, I feel like something is missing, I'm unsexy and an emotional wreck.
I read so much before I decided on the op, and it seemed the right thing, now I'm not so sure,my hospital experience was a disaster, and I'm going to complain, as one nurse treated me so badly I was left feeling humiliated and upset. I have to have chemo in 5 weeks and I have no idea if I can go through with it.
My backaches when I walk about and my stitches tug, I can't bend down to pick things up, I'm dependent on my husband totally, I feel sorry for myself, I'm bored watching tv and using the laptop for more than 30 mins makes me ache.
I'm covered in bruises too.