Hi Everyone. I haven't had chemo for almost 5 weeks now. I had decided to completely stop and take what's left but my Oncologist talked me out of that decision. I still want to stop but can't tell him. So I had just Carboplatin 5 weeks ago. Couldn't have it on the 3rd week as my white cells are down. I am due more on Tuesday after my bloods are checked Monday.
The question I have is I feel tummies and sicky most of the time. There are periods of the day when I'm ok and it goes when I go to bed. But when it's there it's awful.... as I know many of you will know. But should I still be feeling so horrid? The antisickness tablets work to take edge off for an hour or so but then it's back. Just wondered if this is normal... I'm so frightened of any weird symptoms. Like I'm guessing we all are.
Just need reassuring really so hoping one or two of you may be able to reassure me!!
I'm suffering from awful depression feel utterly sad and burst into tears regularly but feel that's good to let the sadness out.
I've known for a long time I'm going to die from this illness but it seems so real suddenly. Everyone is trying to buoy me up for Christmas but I feel nothing.
I watched the BFG tonight and cried when in a scene the little girl got out of bed and put her feet into her slippers.... I remember doing that as a little girl and it just broke my heart. Ridiculous!! It's all the little things suddenly becoming huge to me.
Sorry to go on but all day I have felt empty.
Thank you for reading xxxx