I just wonder if anyone goes through the same feelings as I do with the constant onslaught of chemotherapy and its dreadful side effects. I am now into my 6th year of fighting this blasted disease with almost 4 years of never being free of either weekly, two or three weekly chemo.
With my present regime I am really reaching rock bottom and whilst my motto of 'whilst I have cancer, cancer does not have me' I try to hold on, but I am finding it very hard at the moment. It is day in and day out of fatigue and more fatigue, mouth ulcers, mouth thrush, pain and just everything that goes along with chemotherapy.
I used to be very active, always on the go, working in the house, garden, decorating and now to change a light bulb is a chore. Also being the only driver in the house as hubby is almost blind, I have a 3 hours round trip to chemo - no trains or buses where we live.
Am I simply feeling sorry for myself or should I be grateful that I have reached that miracle 5 year mark and my Oncologist is far from giving up on me ?
Love Ann xx