Firstly I’m sorry for yet another miserable post. I have never felt this low before. After first lot of 3rd line chemo on Wednesday all I’ve done is cry. None of the anti sickness is working and I feel sick all of the time. Haven’t actually been sick but retching so much that I’ve really hurt my ribs. Can’t eat anything and not sleeping. I’ve just left a message with my CNS to see if I can have some different anti sickness. I feel like I can’t keep doing this and am thinking that I would prefer this all to end. Then I look at my beautiful children and of course there’s no way I want to leave them but I just can’t snap myself out of this. Sorry for the misery but I’m at my wits end.