Help!? I've found a lump in my breast.
I'll be as brief as I can, but I'd love some advice from anyone whose been in a similar situation. My head is a shed at the moment and worst case scenario refuses to leave my brain.
• Diagnosed with stage 1 ovarian cancer in 2005 aged 18. Had treatment in Southampton, one ovary and 6.6kg cyst removed, followed by 6 courses of carboplatin 'just in case' as the cancer was contained within the cyst.
• Follow up appointments in Sheffield while at uni, discharged without much info.
• 2011 had investigative tests to look at fertility, told I wouldn't be able to conceive naturally due to scar tissue on remaining tube, and that I should try before turning 30 as my eggs would deplete afterwards.
• 2012 now in Hull, I came off the combined pill for further fertility tests and got caught pregnant before treatment, my beautiful daughter was born in November.
• 2016 I turned 30 and gave birth to my second gorgeous daughter in December.
• April 2017 I started getting thoughts about my daughters' risk of getting ovarian cancer and saw my GP who said they'd get in touch with Sheffield for more info.
• May 2017 I had to chase up the GP as nothing had been followed up and got an appointment in Sheffield for June.
• June 2017 I saw an oncologist who said that because my circumstances were so rare as I was so young that she'd recommend genetic counselling and wrote to my GP and sent me a copy requesting they follow it up in Hull. The letter arrived in less than a week.
• July 2017 I chased up doctor, nothing done about referral.
Wednesday night after a run I was showering and noticed a lump in my breast. My partner checked it too because I wasn't sure if I'd imagined it, I hadn't. Thursday morning I saw a Nurse Practitioner who checked and said that the lump didn't feel sinister but she'd refer me to a breast screening clinic given my history.
Today I got a call to say that I qualified for an emergency appointment so I have been booked in for 30th Aug but was told not to worry, it was just because of my history. Easier said than done. I asked about the genetic counselling and was again told that nothing had been followed up.
I've thought about nothing else all day. About my 4 year old and my 7 month old daughters. About the fact that I've been tired every day to the point of napping for the last few months but have blamed it on being a mum of two and "going back to work soon" stress, just how I was before I was diagnosed before. About the BRAC gene and if that would impact on my girls. And then there's worst case scenario, me leaving them, or them getting stuck with a shitty gene I might have given them.
There's a good chance it's nothing. My logical mind tells me that the nurse said it doesn't feel sinister, but it's so hard to just get on with it and forget about it. I just want to cry all the time but can't face my family knowing something is wrong. At this point it could be nothing so I don't want to come across as a drama queen but I don't know anyone else who has experienced anything similar and I'm so scared 😢
Sorry for the ramble xx