Hi.. I have not posted for a long time as after a number of years I felt I needed to distance myself from reading and thinking about cancer.. not that is't that easy I realise as I think it comes into my thoughts every day.. A brief history.. diagnose with Stage 1C and Borderline in 2007 and after hospital visits for 5 years finally discharged. I have an old scar on my stomach from gallstones and I pulled it some months ago so went to the docs and she thought I might have a hernia.. turns out I don't but on the scan, they found a 2cm lump in my left pelvic area. After walking out of the docs in floods of tears I finally returned to Oncology and had a blood test which showed my tumour markers were fine and they left me for 3 months and I go back on 12 January for a full CT scan with contrast. I am dwelling as I finished treatment February 2008 so it is some years.
Has anyone else had such an experience.. I just feel a sense of doom. The doc said it is a good thing that I have no symptoms and that I am generally well but I just feel like the past years when I thought everything was behind me have finally caught up with me. I am scared to be positive as I just feel everything is going to come crashing around me..