I posted a week or so ago, im not having chemo, just couldnt cope. Now im faced with an awfully sad situation. My wonderful mum is dying, not from cancer, but im finding it so hard fighting my illness and coping with the thought of losing my mum, who is my rock and my best friend, i tell her everything. Now her illness has all but taken her away from me, when i get results etc shes the first id call, now i dont, no point, shes too ill. I miss her already, the phone calls every day, the chats, all just about gone. Dont know,what to do feel empty and now just waiting.... my family just dont give me the support i want and need, they never ask how i am, never ask when i have my next appointment.... nothing. They know how shattered i am visiting my mum every day, they can see it and i even tell them but they dont even offer to visit to,give us a rest, utterly,selfish. Im sorry to rant but i feel so,depressed dont feel like i want to carry on particulay anymore, seems pointless. My eldest son hasnt even asked how i am for 8 weeks let alone enquire as to how his nanna is. Im gutted. Family ... brill hubby and daughter tho. Sorry to moan.