I'm so anxious.

[Damelza]

I think I'm going to be sick with all the " what if's" going through my head. On so many levels I was so eager for this day to come but now that it's here, I just wish that it weren't . I didn't sleep all night and my husband is snoring like a train!! My appointment is at 10 a.m. So not long to wait now!! Deep breaths!!

[GBIRVMIC]

Aww bless you. Once you have a plan in place you'll feel better and will accept the next part of the journey. It's just awful this waiting game. We're all behind you spurring you on and wishing you loads of luck. Big hugs Michelle xx

[Damelza in reply to GBIRVMIC]

Aww thanks Michelle. I just got to get on with it. Like you all do..

[Gleedy]

Waiting is awful. Whatever you are told after initial shock you will amaze yourself with how you get on with it. Hoping for good news for you. Xx

[Bonnie11]

From my experience the news is never as bad as your mind has built it up to be.you will come out relieved that you have crossed this hurdle. You will learn from this experience as this journey is full of waiting and wondering. I believe a huge per cent of this disease is psychological and we have to learn to manage our minds as we have little control over what's happening in our bodies. After you app. Consider Councelling. .mindfulness..any coping strategies to allow you to lead a full life and not get too paralysed by anxiety as there is enough going on. I wish you all the best today. .

[Damelza in reply to Bonnie11]

Thanks Bonny, I think if I know what's happening good or bad it will be a huge relief to me.. Take care

[Hidden]

Will be thinking of you, as the others have said after the shock and being overwhelmed by it all you will get to a point where you will feel better there is a plan for you and you will find the strength to deal with it big hugs xx

[Pixiefae]

Waiting is never good , it's almost like a form of torture! Thinking of you xx

[HogwartsDK]

Just saw your post now Damelza I hope your apt went ok! Keep us posted!

Dx

[ellseybellsey]

Michelle is right I was the same, my head was everywhere I didn't know how I was going to cope.

Once I started my treatment I felt a lot better and my emotions settled down.

The wonderful ladies on this site all know what you are going through and are with you every step of the way.

Ellsey xx

[Millie-c]

Hi damelza,

Hope your app has gone well, keep us posted.

Mandy, xx

[Katmal-UK]

Hope your appointment went ok, please keep us posted xx

[Lorent]

Hi Damelza, I feel the same my chemo is due to start on Tuesday, carbo/taxol week one, then weekly taxol for the next 3weeks, keen to start but can't get my head around that this is really happening , best of luck will keep you in my prayers.

L x

[Damelza in reply to Lorent]

We have to take one day at a time, you are still in shock ( me too I think!) it takes a. While to get your head around it.. I will be starting chemo in the next few weeks. Best of luck.. Let me know how you are getting on please

[Hidden]

HI Damelza today is one of the hardest things you have or had to do, there are lots of good ladies and gents on here to support you whatever the outcome. Wishing you the best

[NicJP]

Had did it go? I am also about to commence the diagnostic process. I personally feel like an idiot for not putting all the symptoms together sooner. Praying for a fibroid.

[Damelza in reply to NicJP]

Hello there, don't be hard on yourself. Symptoms are so vague it's hard to put them altogether. I was diagnosed with 1C ovarian cancer. Waiting to see oncologist now.. I hope it all goes well for you..

[NicJP]

How did you get diagnosed? Scan then biopsy? This sounds awful but we have a holiday booked to France 16/7 and I am trying to work out worst case how long this will take and if that will be affected. We are taking the kids and dogs and haven't had one for 2 years.

[Damelza in reply to NicJP]

Hello Nic, I first was told I had pneumonia back in March but as the days went on it got harder to breathe and to cut a long story short they did a ct scan that's when they found a mass on my ovary. Told me I had to have a total hysterectomy and Went into hospital again with another plural effusion. two days later I had the hysterectomy. One month down the line and I feel good, I have to see the oncologist to see when I start chemotherapy. We were going to Orlando on the 15 th June but I cancelled it because I was feeling very poorly and we had to pay the final payment for the holiday at that time so we decided it would be best if we didn't go, we lost our deposit, kids were very disappointed but what can you do. I hope it all goes well for you 🙂