Well the day for being admitted to hospital is finally here.
I don't know if I want this day to last as long as possible or to go really quick so my operation in the morning will soon be over.
I'm still suffering with anxiety when my mind wanders and I'm so emotional about it all and keep crying. This is not the normal me. I was pre diagnosis a very strong independent woman who dealt with things very matter of fact. I don't like this new me.
I'm sure it may be side effects from the chemo or even the menopause and can't wait for it to just go.
I am the only one being operated on tomorrow as it is the extensive radical surgery it is not just the hysterectomy, I will have a liver surgeon and bowel surgeon just in case further work needs doing.
I'm not looking forward to the recovery, not being able to do much, but hopefully won't want to.
Anyway, just to say thanks for all your support on the run up to this , it has helped.