Hi all, had a bit of a breakdown today and ended up in A and E where I met a lovely psychiatrist who assured me I wasn’t going crazy or psychotic and was in fact really just suffering from ocd related anxiety. I’m meeting a community care team tomorrow to discuss changes to my meds and some CBT. That’s all great but I’m really thankful to my wonderful wife who came with me and for the first time heard all the gory details of my intrusive thoughts without batting an eyelid. I was so ashamed and guilty about the content of my brain that I never told her the full horror that exists in my mind. I feel great relief having told her and would encourage anyone hiding their thoughts from their significant other to be brave and take the chance. I know I still have a long hard road ahead but for the first time in a long time I have a little bit of hope.
Thanks Shell,and than you anyone who reads this and gets some comfort .
Peter
My OCD is too much to handle right now!
OCD and trauma