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Worried this will never get better

I have a three month old baby and have developed OCD, I am troubled with intrusive thoughts, been on sertraline for almost four weeks and although it has dulled it a bit it’s not away. Although the original unwanted thoughts seem to have gone they have just been replaced with a different set instead. Is it possible to have different intrusive thoughts? I thought it was always just the same thought over and over which makes me worry that my new thoughts are real and not OCD related. I haven’t started CBT yet but have been referred. Does it really help? Also, should I be feeling the full effects of the sertraline by four weeks or is there still room for further improvement? I have a knot in my stomach all the time and I’m so worried I’m always going to feel like this, I just want to enjoy motherhood and feel normal :-(

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Hello .... I feel for you ocd Is so awful.. can I ask what are your intrusive thoughts and are they based around your baby ? As mine were and still are about my baby and it kills me inside, Ian alot better then what I was x if you would prefer to private message in detail feel free x

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The original thoughts were focused on my baby but they seem to have calmed down since I started the sertraline. The new thoughts I have instead, however, are just as distressing but they are not focused on my baby and that is what worries me more because I’m concerned that they can’t be blamed on a postnatal condition (although I’ve never had them before). You said you feel better but you still have the thoughts, does that mean they will never go away? Did you do CBT or take meds or both? I really can’t stand it, I just want to go back to the way I was before it all started and I’m worried that will never happen.

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But they can be blamed on ocd and ocd comes up with loads of different scenarios.... I have only been suffering for just over a year say I can't really say of they we will go fully or not ... I hope they do though I done cbt and meds was on sertraline worked through my pregnancy but not after Iam now on citelopram and it's working wonders as thoughts are in middle of my head not right at front and every second of every day no more Ian currently waiting to see a therapist for therapy again. Xxx

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It's a real shape shifter, OCD is! One obsession or compulsion can go and another takes it place. I've had OCD for many years and this has happened to me a lot. It can feel like you press it down in one area and it pops up in another!

Having a baby is a huge upheaval in anyone's life, however much happiness it brings, and OCD has a habit of popping up just when you are dealing with anything new or stressful.

It does take several weeks for an antidepressant to kick in, so it's worth persisting with, as you haven't been on it for very long. Once it starts working it can feel like a big black cloud has lifted. CBT is effective, and meds are most effective when used alongside it.

Please don't be worried that you'll always feel like this. It really is OCD, and it is treatable. Listen to Amy as she has experience of this knows what she's talking about here!

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Great way to put it, a shape shifter it really is and a pita!!

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Please enjoy your baby. I developed this after the birth of my 1st son. we didn't have the internet I couldn't look into it. i didnt know what it was.. I just figured it was hormones. It DID go away!! what I'm saying is if you ignore it it goes away! dont feed onto it! I had 2 other babies and was fine. Unfortunately after major stresses 20 years later it came out again and I couldn't relate it to hormones and it scared the crap out of me! so now I am on sertraline. I am trying to do what i did 20 years ago and ignore it. It's not you, I'm sure you are a sensitive person and love that baby so much. Enjoy it. don't let thoughts that are not true take that away from you. I am trying to practice this myself. and I know it will get better again. I read something once that kind of stuck.... " to beat it dont feed it"!

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