I feel so exhausted and so done and I don't know what to do anymore. This is controlling me and I honestly can't cope with it.
Exhausted : I feel so exhausted and so done and... - OCD Support
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I know how it feels. Feeling I have to climb the stairs yet again, retrace my steps on the same bit of pavement on my way back from the shop, wash my hands again! But don't feel that you've always feel as bad as this. I've been in a similar place, and though I still have my struggles it's possible to recover and enjoy life again.
It is a very controlling illness but you can fight back. In a previous post you said you were getting some CBT. It can be difficult, but some ERP, or exposure response prevention, where you resist the demands of the OCD to order you about, can help.
Do ask your therapist about it. There are a number of good self help books that can give you a start, or bolster what you are getting from your therapist. They outline exercises which you can adapt to your own particular form of OCD, or you can access similar ones online, and you start off with the least traumatic and work upwards. I've found Overcoming Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and The OCD Workbook a couple of the most helpful, but there are others.
Feel free to post on here whenever you like.