Hi,
I think I have a disorder, or anxiety;
I always feel like my thoughts are being directly read/broadcasted to people who I dont want to see, or that I think that they'll have a quite negative response to.
I can't stop explaining myself the same things over and over and over again.
Like; you know one of those "Introduction" videos or whatever: like "Blla blla blla I have 126IQ blla blla I am patriotic blla blla" than give myself opinions on topics irl like news and stuff.
Also I explain myself things like...how WW2 happened (Wich I have like 100 times)
I feel like...I'm always live-streaming a 'vlog' or whatever and everyone can see what I see and think.
I believe I am anti-social:
I never like hanging out with people, and when for example me and my family are having a good time, like a satisfying time;
"How can I ruin this?","What can I say to break this moment?"
And all of these make me to:
-Uncomfortability (In my mind mostly, due to my privacy, my thoughts being "broadcasted")
-Asocialism (Dont want to hang out with people, like; my uncles birthday lately, everyone went exept me)
-Easly distracted, lack of concentration (Like right now, I am explaining myself alllllll of these, like if I was explaining someone right next to me)
-Stress(Lets say; I got a bad grade, my parents dont know, I get paranoied they have somehow saw what I was thinking and figured out about my grade)
Do I have OCD?
Do you think I need therapy?
And if yes, how do I explain this to my parents(Wich I dont feel comfortable, and stressed that they found out already, and I'm imagining their faces and thoughts)
Or just be like, I'll tell the therapist?