Anxiety/depression

[Booroo89]

For 3 years now i have aniexty on and off. 2 years ago i confided in a family friend as they were struggling too. My fiance isnt great with feelings so i didnt want to make him fill uncomfortable. I have been with my finace for 11 years and now have a 11week old baby. I was living alone so had no1 to speak to at home only my own company. So i confided in my male friend. After a year of confiding to him, my partner finally moved in and we decided to try for a baby which i had longed for. From the day i found out we were expecting i was sooo excited and felt myself again and stopped contact with my male friend ( maybe spoke once a month. But.... from 28weeks pregnant my anxiety come bk tough!!! I was feeling guilty towards my partner for not confiding in him. Finally i confessed too my partner i think i was having an emotional affair. He was mad but understanding but why am i feeling guilt and depressed about it still?