Hi, I've been having hocd since April and I have all the well known symptoms. One that I cannot stand is the mental images. If I try to lay down and close my eyes, I'll see a nasty image of genitals and my eyes pop back open and I start freaking out, or if I see an attractive woman and I'm checking her out, I'll get an intrusive thought saying "what if that's a dude?" Then I'll feel disgusted with myself. Overall I always feel the disgust, anger, and shame that these things could even pop in my head because I know these thoughts and images are not what I desire and I just want it all to go away. Does anyone else experience this? Thank you for reading.