Disturbing mental images

Hi, I've been having hocd since April and I have all the well known symptoms. One that I cannot stand is the mental images. If I try to lay down and close my eyes, I'll see a nasty image of genitals and my eyes pop back open and I start freaking out, or if I see an attractive woman and I'm checking her out, I'll get an intrusive thought saying "what if that's a dude?" Then I'll feel disgusted with myself. Overall I always feel the disgust, anger, and shame that these things could even pop in my head because I know these thoughts and images are not what I desire and I just want it all to go away. Does anyone else experience this? Thank you for reading.

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  • It's hard for me to answer this one, as it's not one I've experienced myself. However, OCD is difficult enough without adding guilt to the mix. OCD is challenging how you perceive yourself; don't let it make you feel guilty as well! For the intrusive images, try a method I was taught. Think of them as like clouds passing over your head, or a wave gathering force. Eventually the clouds will drift away from you, the wave will reach a peak and subside. Try not to beat yourself up about it, either.

  • That's a great way to look at it. Thank you.

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