Help OCD has returned worse

[Tonijo1990]

Hi , I basically suffered with OCD as far as I can remember but washing and contamination since 14.13 years

When I moved into own home I got everything new and had two beautiful boys but a couple days ago my mum charged her phone in my house and now I can't touch that plug socket and everything feels dirty

I've used so much disinfectant and bleach also I've scrubbed myself red raw yet nothing feels clean so today I decided to use that socket with hoover twice and not wash

I do ok but then I'll find something else in the house to panic over and want to clean

As I'm writing this I'm trying to resist the urge to clean my controls and laptop even though I know that I cleaned them before and now my head is telling me they're dirty and me touching them is making everything else dirty . How can I live in my own home feeling like I need to wash things and wash myself over and over in multiple of six

I'm really trying to not wash my hands and items so badly 😭