I have never been to see someone regarding my OCD; I've never been diagnosed 'officially' with it and this makes me feel somewhat as it isn't valid, or if I'm making it up...People don't take me seriously because of this (they use the term loosely too), but I know that this is what's wrong with me. I'm too scared to see a GP or whatever because I'm scared of talking to people.
It's been awful having to perform rituals almost every minute of every day. It feels as if a gun is being pointed at me and forcing me to do these things. During my exams I had to tap my pen a certain number of times ; it got worse than usual and I got stuck in an endless cycle leaving me far less time to finish my exam. The invigilators focused on me too because of the noise I was making with my pen which didn't help as I was conscious of them looking at me. Oh well. Time to get on with life