Thanks to all your encouragement and good ideas I managed to give myself my MTX injection today without too much hysteria, and without the nurse giving up waiting. So thank you!
I do get quite jumpy about needles as I had bad experiences as a child. I got TB as a small child and my parents decided that they didn't want to send me away to a sanitorium but wanted to keep me at home. Anyway that meant a nurse came round every day to give me an injection, my memory says this was for a year but who knows it just seemed endless. This was a different era with no child friendly nursing in those days, so she would just grab me and hold me down kicking and screaming and jab me, and then because both my parents worked I'd be stuck in bed with a radio for company. I remember I always used to try to escape and run away before the nurse came, but would always get caught and usually walloped by her for taking up more of her time. Anyway, needles and me are not good friends...
But all that is now in the past!