Yoo hoo. I am at it again!
Yes it's me. Just a thought or two.
Every day that passes I feel like I am getting things clearer in my head. I even had a little panic yesterday and I thought - this isn't right I don't hurt anywhere.
What if I haven't got RA anymore, or even had it in the first place, or perhaps it's not RA it's something else. Oh my god that means I shall have to go back to picking up eggs and running around with sheep and cows - argghhhh... I was just getting used to keeping up to date accounts and a tidy office. Having time to cook a meal (indeed even feeling like cooking a meal is a novelty!) I am enjoying have time for things I didn't before. I actually manage to get the washing hung up and dry. Before when I was working on the farm, I used to sometimes put it out and then because I wasn't around when it rained it would get wet again. Then the washing would be stuck on the line for days, and everyone would run out of clean underwear, and oh my goodness it used to get on me wick!
I feel I have changed so much in the last few months, my outlook on life, my daily routine, my attitude to things that I used to think were important but realise now they are not.
What is even better is that if I can't do something now, I don't feel guilty about asking them to do it for me. They know if I can do something I will, so are now quite willing to help when they can see me in a pickle!
My daughter does all her own washing any ways, but it is a novelty to see son and heir bring his mucky old clothes down for washing. I nearly fainted the other day when he did that! Life is so much better when you are part of a team.
Then I realised, that actually, I have been such a control freak, that I probably in the past haven't let people help me, thinking I was invincible and no-one does it better than me!! What a bumptious old ****hole I used to be!
I am still looking around for something to do to earn money - not sure what exactly or where, or how, but I feel positive and feel that something will come my way when I need it.... fingers crossed.
Good news too, the group of RA-ers I used to meet up with at the RA Ed sessions organised by our OT department, have decided to keep in touch. So once a month or every six weeks we are going to meet up to do stuff. On the cards is a trip to the hydro pool - which you can hire privately at the hospital. Also a trip to a new coffee bar, which is situated on an old barge in a local town, and someone else has muted a day trip to Lundy Island! At least if we are all together will shall be a force to be reckoned with and the support will be tremendous. So I am feeling very very lucky.
So you see I am not going to have time to pick up eggs - dear. Mr Silageman and Son and Heir are getting on really well, under my astute guidance and supervision mind you. We have sorted out the accountant and have a meeting with a farm consultant within the next couple of weeks, to see how best to move forward.
The accountants already help us with our Tax Credit situation and have said they will look into helping and getting together the DLA application. It sounds strange but these are accountants like you have never met before. They work closely with big farming families, and although farming has to be a viable business these days, they are still a way of life, and so they see the business full of people and not just economic ideas and investments etc etc.... Most of the employees are from farming families.
So things are still on the up..... be positive my friends, and stay positive.
Ooer my thumb and wrist are giving me gip and I have an appointment to have an injection in the joint on Wednesday, which will hopefully kick that into touch for a while.
I shall take my leave and battle on with "sorting out the office". Had RSPCA inspection yesterday and we have a Lion Code self-audit inspection next Thursday which will include a Raising the Awareness inspection on behalf of Waitrose, so got to keep the paperwork up to date!
Tara for now.