By well behaved of course I mean those patients who respond well to triple therapy, who gratefully thank you for their methotrexate miracle. Who "suck it up" without a murmur when it comes to the debilitating side effects.
Of course some of us are "problem patients" despite the fact we have slavishly followed every instruction we've been given we are labelled so because we have had the temerity to experience severe side effects on more than one dmard. In fact we can't take them at all. We've had to ring the hospital helpline more than once - oh the outrage.
So like all problems we hope if we ignore them they will go away.
So what if we have failed completely to arrest the disease, so what if we've left the patient with a damaged immune system and a stomach ulcer.
Never mind eh?
Seven months of debilitating treatment later the disease is worse, the drugs have left lasting medical issues and I have absolutely nothing to show for it except my impending dismissal from work due to the time I've had to take off to get over the medication.
Now with a DAS score of 5 I have been left with no treatment at all and a see you later when you get to 5.1
When I was first diagnosed I was told repeatedly how lucky I was that I had been caught early...how odd no one seems to care 7 months on.
I don't feel lucky now. I wish to God I had never been formally diagnosed because if I hadn't I would still be working and coping and a damn lot fitter than I am now.