Hi all I have first consultant appointment tomorrow after 3 months swollen hands and pain (and also in the winter the year before), stiffness spread to knees which are v bad at mo, and feet/toes painful on and off if I walk more than 15 mins. Feeling nervous and not sure what to expect at hospital. Half of me wants a diagnosis so something will be done and the other wants to pretend it will all go away.
Had to postpone an interview this week to 10 days time as wasn't feeling on form enough. Now worrying if rheum puts me on drugs from tomorrow and that scuppers me for the re-scheduled interview.
Uncertainty is hard. We also have a big holiday to the US with our kids already booked in 2 months time and wondering how I am going to be by then and how much will be able to do, as hubby wants to book theme park tickets etc now to get discounts and I am wondering how long I am going to be able to walk for etc......Hard to talk about it to him without feeling like giant hypochondriac/neurotic.
Feels lonely and scary Woke early as hands hurting at 5am. Then knee got painfully stuck turning over in bed so I got up.