I hope you are keeping as well as you can and aren't suffering too much.
I have found myself in a bit of a dilemma, I have been battling with my knee for a couple of years but it has become really bad in the last year. I had an appointment with my Rheumatologist on Friday who has said that I need surgery for my knee and potentially my elbows as the damage is irreparable and will be what is causing my sevear pain. I'm scared about this as I'm only 28 and feel like I've had to sacrifice a lot in the 12 years I have had RA.
At the moment just walking round my house is difficult. I have damaged cartilage which keeps catching and causes my knee to 'pop' inside which is agony. I have been working as usual but I'm at the point where I don't think I can get trough the day but I'm reluctant to take sick leave. I've never signed out of work before even when I maybe should have. My stubborn determination won't let the RA win but recently I've been getting home and crying with pain. I've been sick with infections all over Xmas and NY and think I have an eye infection now. I'm exhausted!
I'm constantly concerned about people thinking I'm lazy or not going above and beyond for my job. The problem is that I work in a very physically demanding environment. I think I have to change my job soon but in the meantime I'm out of energy.
Apologies for the moan.