This isn't really a question so I thought I'd blog.
I've been browsing this site for a few month's now, when I was referred to Rheumatology Dept after having problems with my hands and fatigue.
Before then I was on ESA due to Depression and Anxiety. I was due my medical last September, but after filling out my form and telling about my newly diagnosed RA I wasn't called for a medical.
I new it would be coming...........And today it arrived, my appointment for a medical (no form this time)
I'm writing this now, because I'm sat here feeling so sick and panicked and just needed to tell someone.
I know this sounds bad but the thought of failing and having to go out looking for work at the moment fills me with absolute dread. Who would want to employ me? I fall asleep at the drop of a hat, I panic, and cry at the slightest thing. And oh how I hurt, I'm lucky not to be in the pain as I know some of you are, but a trip to the shops or a spot of housework really means I then need to lie down with some painkillers!
I'm sorry I'm sounding sorry for myself and hope you understand I needed to just 'say' it
Appointment next Tuesday, and my follow-up at the Hospital is on the Thursday. Wish me luck.
Sorry again for the moaning, and I hope you all out there are having a good day xx