I don't know if I've already asked this, but I'd like to know. I was thinking about what my rheumy said, that I have less joints involved and less swelling, and I looked through my journal. She's right, I'm in less pain than I was. It only rarely wakes me up at night, and while it flares up with the weather I'm not always that bad. Is this control? Because if it is, I'm still not very happy. It hurts to play piano. I've been playing for forty years now, and it hurts. It hurts to walk. It hurts to type. Is this my life now? Is this what we've been working towards?
I know that I should just be happy that it's not as miserable, and sometimes I manage that. I just thought that 'better' would be...well...more better Upping the mtx definitely increased my energy, and cooler weather has been kind to my joints. Is this it, then? I think of Jack Nicolas and say 'is this as good as it gets?'