Still here and still suffering,but am still keeping going....

[sylvi]

I am still not feeling well despite the rest,but unlike the lady he took herself off to Switzerland i will not commit suicide,too many people here who care for me and it would be too selfish to do that to them. Without them then that might be a different story. Hope your all as well as you can be.xxxx

[Kady]

It's always best to keep searching for light in dark places; those can only coexist. <3

[sylvi in reply to Kady]

I am not yet ready to give in when i have the love of my family to keep me going.xxxx

[craigsif]

Hi Syli, so glad you're not ready to visit the other side, much better this side, yes its a struggle but, your are a very important person , happiness is being with people you love

[Hidden]

Your courage and love for others is amazing Sylvi. Sending many gentle hugs. xxx

[cathie]

I agree with you Sylvi about acts of desperation having devastating effects on nearest and dearest. One of my best friends has had depression for many years (not RA related, just chronic depression) and she says that on the worst days the thing to do is to note down the good things that you experience every day. Sort of savour them. I find it has helped.

XXX

[nomoreheels]

Oh bless you Silvi. The fact you're even thinking that way is telling. Surely something is to be done? Thinking of you & just keep your family to mind & keep reminding yourself that only when it gets dark can you see the stars. x

[sylvi in reply to nomoreheels]

I will be fine. I am lucky i have a Bob(hubby) to look after me and i would not do anything to hurt that man as i love him so much.xxx

[nomoreheels in reply to sylvi]

I'm sure he feels the same Sylvi & that will get you through the other side of this horrible place you're in. He's your rock I know that from how you've spoken about him here, you don't need to know people to see the love sometimes. I feel the same about my h & it's my turn to look after him again now as he has to have an op to re-fix his ribcage as the wires holding it together after his heart op have broken & he's in much pain. But we'll get there together, just a bit more slowly. You will too. x

[sylvi in reply to nomoreheels]

I pray your hubby gets through his op and your strong enough To give him the support he needs.xxx

[nomoreheels in reply to sylvi]

We will I'm sure, as will you. Thank you Sylvi. x

[NeonkittyUK]

I understand your despair, Sylvi but you are strong and will come through this. Gentle hugs. xxxx

[Hidden]

I love reading your posts - you always say a lot in a few words. But of course this one worries me, you must be going through a difficult time to talk this way. Or perhaps it's more that the difficult times just keep on going without any let-up.

You are much appreciated here and it's easy to imagine how important you are to your family too. Look for the good things every day, never ever feel bad about the stuff you can't do. Wishing you strength and loads of good times ahead.

[sylvi in reply to Hidden]

I will be alright this too will pass.i feel brighter this evening so I am hoping I will soon be over this flare.xxx

[Tinat3]

I am sending you my biggest, heartfelt hug Sylvi.

I've been feeling pretty low atm also and cry at the drop of a hat but we just carry on don't we.

I hope that you start to feel better soon .

Keep talking to us on here and share your woes. It's always better to offload than to bottle it up xxxxx

[sylvi in reply to Tinat3]

Thank you for the hugs darling they are most welcome. I will keep sharing my woes with you all. Next time i hope i will be more cheerful.xxxx

[Tinat3 in reply to sylvi]

Just keep sharing your photos of your beautiful garden and flowers. They cheer me up every time! X

[sylvi in reply to Tinat3]

Alright Tina i will.xxx