I feel as though my life has been on hold for months now.
Diagnosed RA, adjusting to the shock of that.
3 months off work, lot less social contact as I live alone.
Prescribed MTX which made me ill for a lot of the time, then suddenly taken off it as it buggered up my liver enzymes, weekly blood tests which I'll hopefully hear the result of tomorrow.
Dental abscess from Hell on top of 'normal' pain, with no pain relief due to liver enzymes being raised.
More than all of that though has been my mind set which has been pretty negative at times, feeling as though all that made me 'me' and all that I loved doing had been taken away from me.
So to Hell with it, I'm going to take a chance and go away in my van with the dogs from Friday till next Wednesday, I'm having a new bathroom installed with a walk in shower instead of a bath, I can only imagine the mess and hassle if I were here.
If it hurts if I do stuff, and hurts when I don't then why not take a chance to do something I'd really like (normally)
Kinda scared in a way of being stuck in a campsite unable to move...but that's only the worst case scenario, and scared has never stopped me doing anything before....so i'll take my walking stick which I'm usually too vain to use outside, cos nobody knows me there. I'll only go about an hour away to a lovely site in St Neots Cambridgeshire so that if the worst happens a friend can come and rescue me.
Woo hoo, going on an adventure : )
Xxx