Went back to work today (a different role because my part of the NTst property isn’t opening just yet!) but was a great day chatting to visitors, seeing nature, being outside and in a different role = different routine. Did I think about smoking? Yes.... when I told my colleagues I’d quit. When I saw a fag butt on the floor and felt irritated someone littered (always a pet hate even when I was a smoker!) and lastly when I saw two people smoking. I didn’t catch a whiff of it but felt more bad they smoke!
I’m not sure how I’m finding this relatively fine! Except for the extreme fatigue I just genuinely feel like I’m not a smoker?! I see my family and friends. They sort of look at me and say they’re proud. They say ‘it’s okay if you don’t quit on your first time’. I guess that’s making me more determined? Like that doubt in them is making me have no doubt.
Also I just love a journal and this site really helps me to vent and record. Maybe I will have a bad day and be able to read about all these amazing ones! Still enjoying the taste of food and drink....need to get back to exercise in the week!!