This is for remembrance of the most amazing 5 months of my life…I evolved from a rebellious hard ass smoker to a jubilant none smoker and can only look back on my wonderful journey and remember the pain, the loss, the total flatness, the KO’s and most important the victories….
I remember that first few days where rats took over my brain cavity for nesting, the total Zombification, walking around like a detuned radio and frantically trying to escape the tsunami of emotions and feelings.
During this time I was delivered quite a few curve balls, a serious motorbike accident by our 25 year old baby, the huge drought in Southern Africa deputising our business and the job security of 700 of my loyal employees and the latest the loss of my beloved brother in law that was more than a brother than brother in law.
The most wonderful thing during this time is that NOT one day or moment I thought to take up smoking again…I Did not feel that it will be worth it although all the triggers was there..... The amazement of being smoke free was Way...Way to sweet. I have learned to ask how important is it really that you feel satisfied right now for 2 minutes, compared to getting yourself free from this addiction forever?
The process of quitting smoking doesn’t end with the last cigarette. It’s not quitting itself, the real key is staying quit….. and I am committed to stay smoke free forever. For the first time in 38 years I have lived although it is for 5 months only but I have tasted freedom and I liiiiiiiiiike it………..