Just as I thought I was starting to feel better...
I did not smoke, but I struggled big time yesterday all day and today all day long...
I'm very annoyed and disappointed with myself that I am even listening to the stupid thoughts in my head.
Why?! Just why?!.... I just don't get it.
I see people relapsing because clearly they haven't made up their mind yet...but I have!
I do not want to smoke, I do not want to be a smoker anymore but I can't continue to live and act like a lunatic! Is there an end to this?????!
Sorry guys! Very bad today!
As a good friend (forum) told me...I need a kick in the b.....t
I know I have a way to catch up to you but I think we all go through these days. (For me it's still every day).
I've found that my biggest trigger at the moment is boredom so I fill up my days, planned with precision beforehand, and don't leave myself a second to sit and think about it.
I won't say I don't still think about smoking and I won't say I dont miss it. I DO!!! but I find it easier being busy constantly.
Mind you I don't know how long I can keep this up, feel like I'm in training for a marathon!
Anyway you've given me so much support I just wanted to say I'm thinking of you, I understand, and I hope tomorrow's a better day.
I don't miss them, I don't want them, I don't like them, but I'm not adapting very well to living without them! I'm feeling very weird these last 2 days.
I'm now going back to plan B - go to sleep! that usually works for me.