Omg work at home housewives have too much time

Ok so on day 2 but omg I wish I had a job I went out the house too, as a work at home mum I have been able to smoke 24/7 almost, I haven't had restrictions on my smoking for more than around 2 hours for years.

So what am doing I'm hiding I've cancelled work for 2 weeks I've arranged childcare so free between 9-3 for today then hubby off mon-tues , and I'm in bed hiding........tooooo stupid I read Allen Carrr I KNOW I never want to smoke again but I don't know if it's because I suffer anxiety attacks and depression or just I'm a tad stupid but I seem to be in a constant craving of that tight empty chest feeling, I just woke in a panick I dreamt I had found some cigarettes and put them into my pocket for throwing away later....then all of a sudden I had one in my mouth I had lit it subconsciously, the shock actually woke me up in a panic of omg now I have to start all over again.

I'm sooo scared this will last forever that my head has cancelled Allen Carr and turned it into willpower and I will spend the rest of my life pining and feeling like this, yet I know I don't want a cigarette I just want this feeling to stop, this tightness and emptiness how can you be empty for something you don't want ?? ADDICTION plain and simple.

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  • Shelly, I just quit too (day 3). On day two I had big cravings and sometimes found myself shivering and trembling for no reason. I figured going cold turkey might not be for me so I bought some 2mg nicotine lozenges. They have helped me quite a bit. You should consider a nicotine replacement therapy.

    Kudos for getting through day 1.

  • Hi, hope your doing ok, it may be just a little suggestion, but is there a no smoking clinic near you,? they can give you so much knowledge, methods of quitting ect.

    It's not a race , it's the long term goal, but my word you are pushing on, and withdrawal symptoms can take many forms.

    Keep going, pushing on, in my book that's fantastic, well done you

  • Ok I failed I gave in and had a couple of puffs on my vapor cig :-( I let the nicotine back in, I have an appointment with nhs no smoking Tom anyhow already had it booked before I jumped but I don't think ct is for me, but I still don't want to smoke a real cigarette i will beat this somehow just wish I could have held out rather than the long battle of nrt :-(

  • Don't be too hard on yourself shelly - it is still an amazing success to have got this far and an ecig is a lot lot better than the nasty real thing.

    I am just on the last couple of hours of day four and then onto day five. I think between you,shxfee and me, we should be able to nudge each other along.

    Let's all keep focused and we can win this fight!

  • Thank you I think it's just I so wanted to do ct and having nicotine defeats that I felt disappointed and like a failure but hubby just got home and reminded me I'm nearly at the end of day 2 of not smoking I'm not smoking I've been so concentrated on not having nicotine I kind of lost that part of the equation are you doing ct?

  • Shelly my lovely you have not failed, you have succeeded, you have not smoked, absolutley fantastic, 2 days nearly done, that's brilliant in my book.

    As I've said I used the patch method, was on them for 14 weeks, but hey over a year now, and still quit.

    Your doing brilliant, early night and a new day tomorrow

  • First 3 days are rotten. I personally couldn't have done cold turkey, I've tried that in the past and failed. As I live in Spain and NRT products are ridiculously expensive, double the price of cigs, I bought an ecig. I never used any nicotine liquid higher than 12 mg which I used for just one week, then lowered it to 6mg nicotine for two weeks then 0 nicotine for one week, I then ditched the ecig. I have used nothing for two weeks now, I have an odd craving but nothing I can't brush off quickly. Obviously the best way is cold turkey but most quitters use some form of NRT or Champix and there's no shame in that. The important thing is to stop smoking and gradually wean off any NRT products. Your doing great and we are all here to support you.

  • Thank you I am now still smoke free :-) and feel better about that than I did I felt such a failure not. Going cold turkey but all I pave had today is 2 x 2mg tabs and about 3 goes on my vapour cig which is filled with only 2/3 of menthol 0mg and 1/3 12mg nicotine spearmint flavour so actually feel quite good about that I smoked roll ups before so not sure how many in a number a day but a lot so to go 2 days is great and actually still feeling good that I will not smoke again one battle at a time I think, I'm further and better than I ever dreamed possible so going to bed with a smile even if it's not the smile I wanted it's better than the frown of last week as a smoker

  • I didn't post on day one, because I seriously thought I would fail. I started on Champix where you have to set a quit date, my quit date came and went,on the 10th and a bought a packet on the 13th as my 'excuse' was, I had a funeral to attend on the 14th. I was into my 3rd week of Champix, down to 5 cigarettes a day, which to be honest were making me feel a little sick. By the Wednesday I still had 9 of the cigarettes left and had to go back to the docs to report on how I felt after 'quitting'. She told me to go home and smoke the lot and quit the next day. As much as I tried I couldn't... I wanted one, lit one, felt sick, threw it away... I finally got through those last 8 smoking my last one (well half of one) yesterday at 6.30pm.... I JUST HAD TO FINISH THEM, I don't know why, I had to, couldn't just throw them away, even though it was really getting on my nerves opening that packet and seeing them there... In the end I was glad to see the back of them... since 6.30 yesterday I have had a craving once, but remembered how hard it was to smoke the last few.... I'm not sure how this Champix thing works, but I feel ok, even had the stress of the funeral, but didn't feel the need to smash my way through a packet of cigarettes. I have an app on my phone which tells me I am almost 30 hours smoke free... Good luck Shelly, it took me over a week to finally decide I had to make a quit date and stick to it... :)

  • Well done Picknmix!

    You can do this, and so can you, Shelly :)

  • Sounds similar to my experience with champix. I don't think there is a right and wrong way. And I agree with you on not being able to throw away the remainder of the pack of cigarettes. On previous quits I have done that and spent a small fortune in one day. Buying ten, having a couple, being ashamed and frustrated, throwing the rest away, and then repeating it a couple of hours later. On this occasion, my partner has two opened packs in a drawer in the kitchen. I'm astounded I have delved into them! All the best with your quit.

    This smoking lark. What lengths we go to!

  • I didn't post on day one, because I seriously thought I would fail. I started on Champix where you have to set a quit date, my quit date came and went,on the 10th and a bought a packet on the 13th as my 'excuse' was, I had a funeral to attend on the 14th. I was into my 3rd week of Champix, down to 5 cigarettes a day, which to be honest were making me feel a little sick. By the Wednesday I still had 9 of the cigarettes left and had to go back to the docs to report on how I felt after 'quitting'. She told me to go home and smoke the lot and quit the next day. As much as I tried I couldn't... I wanted one, lit one, felt sick, threw it away... I finally got through those last 8 smoking my last one (well half of one) yesterday at 6.30pm.... I JUST HAD TO FINISH THEM, I don't know why, I had to, couldn't just throw them away, even though it was really getting on my nerves opening that packet and seeing them there... In the end I was glad to see the back of them... since 6.30 yesterday I have had a craving once, but remembered how hard it was to smoke the last few.... I'm not sure how this Champix thing works, but I feel ok, even had the stress of the funeral, but didn't feel the need to smash my way through a packet of cigarettes. I have an app on my phone which tells me I am almost 30 hours smoke free... Good luck Shelly, it took me over a week to finally decide I had to make a quit date and stick to it... :)

    A huge welcome from me, come on in, close the door we can have a natter, your doing fantastic, and you should be proud to have made the decision to quit. We are her for the bad times as well as the good, the forum I believe had saved many a quit in times of trouble, including me.

    Bit late now, but a warm welcome, great to have you on board, look forward to your future posts

  • Please don't rush if you are on champix, the idea is to relieve withdrawal. If on champix and you have set a stop date - it really doesn't matter if you have a relapse - it's ok - the champix continues to work and you continue to smoke until your body is ready - between 2 - 5 weeks or longer if needed. Let champix do the work for you.

    I am not saying it is easy - the first 3 - 4 weeks for me were horrible but it's the champix blocking your nicotine receptors - I had major withdrawal but I am now into week 5 and it's a lot easier - a few deep breaths or a puff on a 0% ecig seems to work.

    Don't give in - nicotine is a monster - I feel like a ciggie as I am writing this at the moment but I know that this will not reduce my craving as champix is blocking it - so no choice but deep breaths x :)

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