It is only 8 days but I qualify to post in here now, right?!
well. I went through the first seven days thinking that I was more addicted than anyone in the world and that I couldn't do it...but here I am!
days 3 to 6 were horrid in honesty. My moods towards loved ones (and a few drivers on the road!) frankly a little frightening! I think the whole time I was thinking, "if I behave badly enough, people around me will just tell me it's not worth it and ask me to smoke again." Of course, they didn't. The people that love you don't want you to smoke!
instead I was irritatingly confronted with tolerance towards my horrid behaviour and tantrums and tons of support and encouragement. It drove me nuts! People kept telling me it would get easier but it wasn't...I felt like it was harder each day.
I am coming from a slightly saner place today! I feel very grateful to be surrounded by such a patient bunch in real life and such a supportive, and sometimes hilarious, bunch on here! Been great to read posts of other struggles - normalising and reassuring me that mine were similar and that, just perhaps, I wasn't the most addicted person in the world ever! Just going through what we are all going through...struggles are real but possible to overcome...rants, tantrums and tears can be part of the process and are okay too...yelling at inanimate objects, totally fine.
I would have punched myself for saying this just two days ago...but it IS getting easier. Not easy and not quickly...but definitely EASIER, by a fraction.
Giving up smoking is such a huge, difficult life and mindset change it's not only been incredible to see how much stronger I am than I initially presumed...but also how much strength the people around me have to put up with, well, whatever I need to say/do because they appreciate the change is so big and sooo positive.
Amazing to have more reflective thoughts than addict thoughts. If it is for today only, it is a start!