Day 19 nicotine monster on the attack

Hi all, well reached day 19 and finding it tough. For some reason the desire to smoke has been getting stronger the last couple of days. I'm finding it hard to concentrate and my head is all over the place, my memory is playing tricks with me and I forget what I'm doing . On one level I don't want a fag but then I have a crazy thought that just one would make me feel better. The craziness only lasts for a few minutes and then it fades. I realise that it's all just illusion but its a damn hard illusion to resist. But I will beat this damn nicotine monster I'm over 6 feet tall and this little **** is only 3inches so I'm just gonna squash the little toe rag. Hope you are all well. Love Jonno

2 Replies

oldestnewest
  • Hi all, well reached day 19 and finding it tough. For some reason the desire to smoke has been getting stronger the last couple of days. I'm finding it hard to concentrate and my head is all over the place, my memory is playing tricks with me and I forget what I'm doing . On one level I don't want a fag but then I have a crazy thought that just one would make me feel better. The craziness only lasts for a few minutes and then it fades. I realise that it's all just illusion but its a damn hard illusion to resist. But I will beat this damn nicotine monster I'm over 6 feet tall and this little **** is only 3inches so I'm just gonna squash the little toe rag. Hope you are all well. Love Jonno

    Just squish the little bugger and he'll soon leave you alone ;)

    I can relate to what you've said, right down to the last letter, as I also suddenly had the urge come back at around 3 weeks. It was really odd because I felt like I was doing okay, then bam! I felt like a mad woman. Half of me knew I didn't want to smoke and the other half was constantly battling and telling me just to give in.

    I got to the point, on two occasions, where I was moments away from lighting a cigarette up (on one of these occasions I actually bought a packet), but I couldn't do it. I knew that I didn't want to smoke.

    So I stopped worrying about the future and stopped being in my head so much. Most of the time I don't mind a good old natter to myself (yes. I am a little bonkers), but this time I think it is best to stop all of the thinking and just get on with it.

    Within days of my near slips, I was feeling more positive and am now annoyingly bubbly all of the time! Lol. I'm happy to be a non-smoker and even look forward to the times I was dreading before (summer outside the pub, sunny holidays abroad with a cocktail in hand).

    It might only be an illusion, but you really have to sort your head out in order to push on through.

    I hope I've helped and not worried you into thinking you might end up at the shop asking for a pack of ciggies (I'm not proud of this moment). I just wanted to assure you that it feels much better after this point and things get a lot clearer each time you push that nasty little devil away! :)

  • Hi all, well reached day 19 and finding it tough. For some reason the desire to smoke has been getting stronger the last couple of days. I'm finding it hard to concentrate and my head is all over the place, my memory is playing tricks with me and I forget what I'm doing . On one level I don't want a fag but then I have a crazy thought that just one would make me feel better. The craziness only lasts for a few minutes and then it fades. I realise that it's all just illusion but its a damn hard illusion to resist. But I will beat this damn nicotine monster I'm over 6 feet tall and this little **** is only 3inches so I'm just gonna squash the little toe rag. Hope you are all well. Love Jonno

    Hi Jonno :)

    First of all don't worry - a lot of us, if not most, have been there and we've got through it.

    Don't know what causes it but know I got to a point where it was "when" not "if" I caved. *But* I got through it and out the other side without smoking, and you will too!!

    Take it one day at a time, smash the fag monster over the head and you'll be fine :)

    Think it's like your mind romanticises the idea of smoking, and you remember the good parts without thinking of all the c**p that goes with it, but again you get past it pretty quickly and are just so glad you didn't go ack to the death sticks.

You may also like...