Does it get worse before it gets better?!

I'm sorry but this is a moan to all on this forum.

Firstly, I am plucking up the courage to make an appointment with the Doctor about my symptoms but as yet I remain defiant as my last visit was somewhat uncomfortable!!... In a nutshell, I was told that I could only discuss ONE health problem/concern at any one given appointment!!! WT*???!!

I recently had a very bad cold/cough which is more than likely related to this season's trend and working in a school, but since then the cold has made my PND worse...my mouth tastes weirdly sweet every time I swallow my saliva and I feel as if there is a 'fur-ball' growing at the back of my throat. I must admit I have not really experienced the 'ex-smokers cough' that many of you have talked about and certainly haven't experienced the 'clearing' of lungs...but I know my mouth/throat does not feel right!

I do however have a Dentist appointment this Friday! So, at least will find out whether it is a dental problem or not!

I am still struggling with my energy levels...and the weather isn't helping much either...it really is a case of come home...get into bed and do nothing else...however, now I remain wide awake till past midnight and then suffer in the morning!!

I am bored...bored of everything...TV, friends, work, life etc...I have no passion, no drive left in me! I feel like a miserable moany b1tch...in fact I was told today that I would make the perfect villain in my school Panto!!! :(

I think my problem is that I expected to be hop, skip and jumping my way to feeling 17 years old again if I gave up smoking...and I don't, I feel worse than I did when I smoked!

Oh! And for those of you who may have read my first ever post, I mentioned one previous failed quit attempt due to vanity....I grew a beard of spots, well move over Movember...I got myself a bright red, sore and flakey Beardember once again! The first time round I thought it was an allergic reaction to the patches, this time round I have used no NRT and yet they have still reared their ugly heads...I feel so UGLY!!!!

So, I not only feel like sh1t in general but I look like it too!

SOMEBODY ON THIS FORUM, PLEASE TELL ME THAT IT TRULY IS A CASE OF IT GETS WORSE BEFORE IT GETS BETTER????????

AND NOT THAT I WISH THIS FEELING UPON ANYBODY BUT SOMEBODY OUT THERE SURELY MUST KNOW WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH....?

I am on such a low despite the fact that it's Christmas and tis the season to be jolly but I really don't feel it right now. A proper BAH HUMBUG!!!

HOWEVER...I AM 159 DAYS SMOKEFREE AND INTEND TO BE SMOKEFREE FOR ETERNITY BUT WITH HINDSIGHT.... IF I KNEW THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW...I NEVER EVER EVER WOULD HAVE STARTED THIS FILTHY DISGUSTING DEBILITATING HABIT IN THE FIRST PLACE!

Newcomers - Please do not be put off by this post...continue with your quit regardless of what your quit may bring - EVERYBODY IS DIFFERENT, AND NO TWO QUITS ARE THE SAME FOR ONE PERSON EITHER!

All I want for Christmas, is to feel HEALTHY AND HAPPY once again!

Miserable Moany Mimi xxx

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  • Oh dear you are suffering, but yes Mimi it does get better. If you read some of Shelleys and Una's posts they both list the symptoms that they have had during their quit. I think we all just assume we will feel better cos we have quit but that unfortunately is not thye case. However you would feel a whole lot worse if you started smoking again, so it is just a case of keep on going and pat your self on the back for doing so well!:)

  • [QUOTE=Mimi2175;

    I am still struggling with my energy levels...and the weather isn't helping much either...it really is a case of come home...get into bed and do nothing else...however, now I remain wide awake till past midnight and then suffer in the morning!!

    I am bored...bored of everything...TV, friends, work, life etc...I have no passion, no drive left in me! I feel like a miserable moany b1tch...in fact I was told today that I would make the perfect villain in my school Panto!!! :(

    I think my problem is that I expected to be hop, skip and jumping my way to feeling 17 years old again if I gave up smoking...and I don't, I feel worse

    Miserable Moany Mimi xxx

    First I can relate to most of that. I wanted to feel like a 17 year old too:D I still don't have any energy levels even though I take tons of vitamins. I've had the spots but they seem to have gone.

    I'm bored bored bored too. Still can't get motivated. Whenever I'm in the house I lie down with a book or DVD. I too feel worse than when I quit and I'm hoping I'll buck up when I go away in January. I know I will:)

    This doesn't seem to happen to very many of us so don't worry newbies

  • Thanks Haze....

    I have always been a very organised person that likes to make plans and know well in advance of pending commitments...a confident person that generally looks after her appearance and is a fun to be around but I seem to have experienced a mental and physical morphism with a total stranger!

    I have read Shelly and Una's posts, in fact am a big fan of their strength and determination but I am scared of the unknown! And this is all unknown to us!!

    I hope this is the worst it gets because I don't like who I am becoming anymore! :(

  • Oh Una...what are we like???

    I wish I could give you a big fat warm hug and for you to hug me back and that way we could then truly feel like we are not alone in this unpredictable journey!

    Haha...I know how you too feel about the vitamins, minerals...Here's my list:

    * Cod Liver Oil

    * Evening Primrose

    * Vitamin C

    * Zinc

    * Magnesium

    * Vitamin D

    * Vitamin B Complex

    And tbh...I don't even really know why I am taking them, whether each will really help and more importantly DO I NEED THEM??? I've just read that these help! (Mind you, the Zinc, Magnesium, and Vit D) I've only just started taking and half the time forget to take any of them!!!

    I really need a fully body MOT to tell me what is wrong with me!

  • Hi Mimi,

    My personal thoughts is that it probably does get worse before it gets better. Your body is trying to get rid of all the toxins you've put in it, so the fur ball and breaking out in spots is just a manifestation of that. I actually think the lack of get up and go and energy etc is actually the season. If you think about what you'd do with your day if it was summer I think naturally your energy levels would rise. I haven't quit for as long as you but I do feel similar...work, home, tv bored and eat tonnes and feel like a fat blob an feel worse.

    I know what I need to do to combat all my feelings and energy levels is to eat healthy and exercise but the winter just doesn't give me the motivation to do that. My plan therefore is to get through Christmas and then give myself a kick up the arse and get to the gym....until then I'm going to wallow..... Meh

  • Mimi, I'm taking all these except the evening primrose. I think I'm past that one. I think the magnesium and D3 help. I'm sure we will get there i the end. By Easter we'll be able to laugh about it all.

  • Hi Mimi,

    My personal thoughts is that it probably does get worse before it gets better. Your body is trying to get rid of all the toxins you've put in it, so the fur ball and breaking out in spots is just a manifestation of that. I actually think the lack of get up and go and energy etc is actually the season. If you think about what you'd do with your day if it was summer I think naturally your energy levels would rise. I haven't quit for as long as you but I do feel similar...work, home, tv bored and eat tonnes and feel like a fat blob an feel worse.

    I know what I need to do to combat all my feelings and energy levels is to eat healthy and exercise but the winter just doesn't give me the motivation to do Meh

    I felt the same way all summer. I even bought a sad light box and use it every morning. This too shall pass:)

  • I felt the same way all summer. I even bought a sad light box and use it every morning. This too shall pass:)

    I'm thinking of getting one of those. I lack motivation and energy in winter normally so quitting smoking has kind of just emphasised that. I won't let myself give in though!

  • I'm definitely a summer person. I'm glad I bought the light and I'm sure it will get well used :D

  • I think you're all right!!!

    YES!!! I guess I do suffer from SAD...I become a real recluse and tend to hibernate and wallow away in my self-pityness, so hopefully my energy levels will soon get charged with a much needed boost of Spring in my step.

    For Everything else, I do need to see the Doc even if it means having to see the Doc everyday for a whole week to discuss every single symptom...

    And am secretly nervous about seeing the dentist too (although she is a lovely friendly lady....god I dislike her job!) but fingers crossed, nothing majorly wrong with my gnashers!:D

  • Hi Mimi

    I was scared to carry on reading your thread but you end on a positive note.

    And the post above looks full of optimism to me, a stranger, so hats off to you for keeping going through your bad times.

    You say you think you need a full MOT?

    Well why not get one for your own peace of mind?

    Do you live in a city/built up area?

    Sounds like it from the doctor's one symptom one visit carry on (which is shocking isn't it in these times!!)...I live in a rural area and the doctors are fantastic. You could have an hour appointment if you needed it!

    What about BUPA or AXA or other such private medical care?

    Is it worth getting a quote from them?

    Bound to be cheaper than you think now you don't smoke! ;)

  • If I can't get any help from a doctor then I go to see one privately. Costs about £50 but I think it's worth it.

  • NHS...Nothing Healthy about our Service!

    Nifty, yes I live in London and it is a nightmare trying to get a Dr's appointment let alone having the 'time' to discuss why you made the appointment!

    My particular surgery require you to call in everyday to see if there are any 'cancellations' in order to get seen OR you can book 2/3 weeks in advance...which by then a patient could be dead or recovered!

    Plus, when I joked with my doctor about giving up smoking and that I had achieved however many weeks/months it was...and wasn't he going to congratulate me...he replied 'Do I get any thanks from people like you who chose to smoke in the first place despite me telling you that it was bad for you?' (Which I thought was a bit harsh! and I could have replied...Thank you for telling me something I already know?!! That's a bit pointless!!! I think we all know smoking isn't a health benefit!!)

  • I don't think I could take that! :eek:

    I'd have to be changing my doctor every month....and getting a solicitor to get me out on bail!

    I moved from the Liverpool area up to here back in 1990 and I was blown away by the time that people have to "give you"

    Not just doctors but all around...

    Straight talking - yes,

    love hard work - yes,

    love a good time - hell yes,

    compassionate - my word yes!

    You know what you want to do Mimi?

    Sell your house/flat/bedsit for about £495,000 and move up t'North! :D

    It's cold, wet and hard work ....... but it's great! :D

  • Oh Una...what are we like???

    I wish I could give you a big fat warm hug and for you to hug me back and that way we could then truly feel like we are not alone in this unpredictable journey!

    Haha...I know how you too feel about the vitamins, minerals...Here's my list:

    * Cod Liver Oil

    * Evening Primrose

    * Vitamin C

    * Zinc

    * Magnesium

    * Vitamin D

    * Vitamin B Complex

    And tbh...I don't even really know why I am taking them, whether each will really help and more importantly DO I NEED THEM??? I've just read that these help! (Mind you, the Zinc, Magnesium, and Vit D) I've only just started taking and half the time forget to take any of them!!!

    I really need a fully body MOT to tell me what is wrong with me!

    U are taking the same vits as me.. Well iv not took I'm for 2 weeks and not noticed any difference tbh

  • U are taking the same vits as me.. Well iv not took I'm for 2 weeks and not noticed any difference tbh

    Hiya Shelly how are you doing?

    Molly x

  • I'm not taking them every day now. I felt I was rattling:D

  • It's bin nearly 8 month fir me and I'm only just starting to bring up rubbish and having a cough.. Could be the weather. But as long as it gets up the crap I ain't botherd..

    I does get better i promise.. I'm still tired and have anxity and still yet to see if there is anything up with my heart.. Got my 24 hr heart montiore being fitted next Friday.. Altought I'm not very happy as its the Friday before Xmas and I normaly go out in fancy dress with the girls. :mad:

    I Wounder if I have always have had anxiety. But smoking took it away

    And for the heart palps iv always had them but I fort it was smoking so I was supprised that they didn't go away when I stopped.

    The smoking habit it self had gone.. I don't crave I don't think about it.. I don't hate it or still love it.. I have no feeling towards it at all..

    But as for the spots they will not go.. My skin on my face has gone a bit crap..

  • Hiya Shelly how are you doing?

    Molly x

    Hi I'm okay.. How are u

  • I'm not taking them every day now. I felt I was rattling:D

    I'm now off all the anxiety meds.. She put me on the pill see if that has any effect., although I wasn't impress with her attitude.. Saying to me u do have to give the tablets 3 weeks to work.. My response was Wud u carry on taking something that makes u breathless just walking to the loo

  • I'm taking nothing now. I thought it was the years of smoking catching up with my lungs. I felt too weak to go out. Glad it was just the pills.

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