I am very pleased to have reached 5 weeks (well it's 37 days as of today) despite some serious provocation this week from whatever treacherous part of my subconcious mind still wants me to smoke! I am not going to make any assumptions but today has been a bit easier although I do feel extremely vulnerable in that if anything overly stressful were to ocurr (out of the ordinary) I don't know how much I trust myself not to smoke. I am absolutely determined not to smoke but I do feel like I have this little traitor in my head trying to trip me up or trick me! Has/does anyone else ever feel like that? I honestly do feel like there is something lurking and waiting to sabotage my rational mind! I don't want to smoke, I don't intend to smoke, but I'm still really anxious that I will smoke! I could go as far to say that there is a battle raging within me and I'm praying it's the rational side who wins.
Looking foward to tackling the next week. Each day I tick off is another day when I am still winning.