Hi to My Lovely Fellow Octo`s and all others reading this who are trying to kick the dreaded weed.
It is 2 years today since I quit Nicotine, I cannot beleive it , but my trusty quit counter states:
18,201 cigarettes I would have smoked
I have saved, rolling my own, prices based on 2 years ago, £2126
As my old quit buddies from this site well know I have had a very up and down journey to be smoke free, but I am, and SO VERY PROUD of myself and my other Octo buddies who have also made 2 years, well done to us all.
My brief story: I had to quit or risk dying early due to cancer, I really loved my fags, and had smoked for 42 years, but my consultant made it very obvious I had little choice.
It took me 6 months, I tried most of the patches, tablets etc, but was either allergic or they didnt work. In the end at 10.30 pm on the 29th October 2009 I threw my last fag end into the flower bed and swore that was my last.
I then signed up to this forum and went through hell like most others for the first few weeks, after so long smoking I was very addicted and it was hard, hard work. But every week I managed , I felt so proud of myself. I had to go through several more horrid times at hospital, but by now I was signing my forms as a non smoker and that felt really good.
Many, many times I nearly caved in, but why didn`t I, the main reason was, this website, and not wanting to let my fellow Octo`s down, they had been so fantastic to me and a wonderful support. My lovely husband had also put up with my rants and raves and I really did not want to let him down.
The final reason is plain bl...y stubborness, several of my friends and family had said that I would not stick at it, so I wanted to prove them wrong and I have.
I gained weght like most others, but most of it has gone now thanks to the gym and slimming world. I now hate the smell of cigarette smoke, it really is horrid, and when I am with friends who go out for a fag I cannot believe how bad they smell when they come back in, it really makes me feel sick.
Unfortunately we are back and forward to hospital again, this time with my husband who has `Myeloma`, a cancer of the blood. When I have to take him in when he is very poorly it is just dreadful to have to walk past this curtain of smoke as we get to the main doors and some of those patients are also very ill and I feel so very sorry for the awful addiction of the dreaded nicotine drug.
Nicotine is such a powerful drug and it takes a lot to give it up, but please stick with your quit or , please, keep trying it really is so worth it.