I dissapeared for a bit there. Been busy with stuff around the house and evenings are filled, and the worst part is that i have been crazy busy at work and havent had time to write...the nerve of my work giving me work to do
Well, its been over a week since my last posting and I can say that I have been feeling pretty good. I had major cravings on Friday, and, to make it worse, I even found a stashed pack that had 3 smokes in it. I'm not going to pretend like i was some hero and threw them out right away. I'll be honest, I held all three in my hand. Thinking, what is the harm here....its only 3...and they are "free". I even held one in between my fingers like I was holding it to light it.
I remembered all the bads, the tight chest, how bad they tasted at the end of the first week of champix, the smell, the horrible taste in my mouth. I can say i snapped them in pieces and threw them in the garbage. It was a bit of an enlightening experience. That I can walk away from them. That I can say no, even when there was no one around, no one to have to admit defeat to. But....it wasnt easy. My motivation was, "How can i dissapoint so many that are backing me"
I know this is going to be a life long battle....and I hate when people say "If I only knew then what I know now...blah blah blah"...but that is the God's honest truth.
Glad to be back, gonna read some posts now to see how you guys are doing.
Thanks for reading,