Hi everyone, I hope you are all well and enjoying the Summer.
I've been away for the last couple of weeks and prior to that was feeling very relaxed about my quit; I mastered the immediate habit of smoking after dinner, on the way to work, in the car, when out drinking etc after about 7/8 weeks so I felt quite comfortable.
2 weeks ago I went on holiday which entailed a very long flight.
I'd done a fair bit of traveling as a smoker so know that losing the association of visiting airport smoking rooms/chaining half a dozen before going through security would be a challenge but I beat this quite easily, however the biggest challenge was yet to hit me.
Lying by a pool/on a beach I found painful for the first 2/3 days, for the first time in weeks I genuinely entertained the thought of smoking.
I saw others laughing and enjoying being at the bar/in the pool smoking, I saw couples walking romantically along the beach holding hands and yep, smoking ! And looking so happy.
I took a count one night, 17 smokers at the bar and 15 of them laughing/smiling alot and the other 2 looking were very relaxed and enjoying themselves
I calculated every option, do I give in ? Do I buy some cigars and not inhale (something I did on a previous quit), do I fight this and risk an unenjoyable holiday and upsetting the family ?
I fought it and I won, but believe me this was the hardest fight of the last 4 months - I can honestly say this was harder than day 1, 2, 3 or any of the previous 75 days.
I want this to act as a warning for anyone about to go on holiday - I don't believe I became complacent but I do believe I didn't plan well for my holiday as place and situation association is something I've always been aware of and mindful of their power.
Please, anyone about to hit the beach, plan properly and have a plan B, I hope it's not the case but you may well need it.
Good luck all and enjoy your hols