I couldn't last any longer :(

[nsd_user663_4897]

Wasn't sure whether to write this in Week one or in this section...i have stopped smoking for nearly 9 weeks, well I had until Saturday, I smoked ten on Saturday night, then bought another ten and smoked the rest on Sunday and had a couple today. I am getting up tomorrow and NOT having a fag! I was feeling really depressed and actually felt like I could kill someone, have been feeling like that for a couple of weeks and that combined with PMT was not a good mixture. Reading everyone else's posts definitely help so thank you all. Weekends are just soooo difficult but don't want to make this mistake next weekend. I am due to finish my patches in a couple of weeks but feel like I have taken a huge step backwards :mad: It is comforting to know people feel the same. I just don't want to feel how i was feeling with so much anger. I never used to be like that, feel like I am changing into a horrible person and I don't like it :confused:

[nsd_user663_8421]

Hi Hazelnut.

I've relapsed before several times. It's so horrible having to reset the quit counter and go through the early days of quitting again. I hope you do manage to quit again tomorrow.

My danger zone is always around 42 days - I've lost a few quits around that time. I'm currently around 33 days so I'm paying special attention to my quit, reading my stop smoking books a lot and thinking as many positive thoughts as I can.

One of the things that I'm sure has helped me this time is that I went to the doctor's last autumn and asked her to prescribe me antidepressants. I think I'm just serotoninally challenged and I need/deserve that little extra bit of help.

Sue

[Dannyboy55]

where do we start to help this person

Hi Hazelnut, well I can talk about my experiences but I don't know what it feels like with PMT. Many people who quit experience mild depression and during my quit I suffered quite badly but I tried St Johns wart from my health food shop, but this was only after talking to my GP and I would advise anyone to speak to the doctor before trying it.But the other things that I felt helped was drinking lots of water and eat plenty of Bananas as they produce seretonine (think that is how you spell it). Keep up the good work and don't stop trying to give up the fags , we are all here to help and support you..

Dannyboy

Wasn't sure whether to write this in Week one or in this section...i have stopped smoking for nearly 9 weeks, well I had until Saturday, I smoked ten on Saturday night, then bought another ten and smoked the rest on Sunday and had a couple today. I am getting up tomorrow and NOT having a fag! I was feeling really depressed and actually felt like I could kill someone, have been feeling like that for a couple of weeks and that combined with PMT was not a good mixture. Reading everyone else's posts definitely help so thank you all. Weekends are just soooo difficult but don't want to make this mistake next weekend. I am due to finish my patches in a couple of weeks but feel like I have taken a huge step backwards :mad: It is comforting to know people feel the same. I just don't want to feel how i was feeling with so much anger. I never used to be like that, feel like I am changing into a horrible person and I don't like it :confused:

[nsd_user663_4121]

Wasn't sure whether to write this in Week one or in this section...i have stopped smoking for nearly 9 weeks, well I had until Saturday, I smoked ten on Saturday night, then bought another ten and smoked the rest on Sunday and had a couple today. I am getting up tomorrow and NOT having a fag! I was feeling really depressed and actually felt like I could kill someone, have been feeling like that for a couple of weeks and that combined with PMT was not a good mixture. Reading everyone else's posts definitely help so thank you all. Weekends are just soooo difficult but don't want to make this mistake next weekend. I am due to finish my patches in a couple of weeks but feel like I have taken a huge step backwards :mad: It is comforting to know people feel the same. I just don't want to feel how i was feeling with so much anger. I never used to be like that, feel like I am changing into a horrible person and I don't like it :confused:

I absolutely feel for you.... PMT sucks.... add nicotine withdrawal and you got a monster. I certainly won't bullshit you and pretend I know where the 'anger' comes from...... just that now my body has had time to detoxify, I'm happier, and miraculously my PMT has gone. Life is stressful these days, add some toxins to the mix, and well you got the monster theme going on...... give yourself time to heal and all will fall back into place. It's what happened to me and I would hope and wish the same for you. Smoking will NOT bring peace back in your life, it will just welcome back the evil of having to feed an addiction on top of everything else. I hope you find it within yourself to walk away from the immediate fix and embrace the longer journey of healing. Good luck to you! x

[nsd_user663_4897]

Thank you all for ur comments. Yes I did get really depressed the first time I stopped for 2 years and i know it gets easier but when your actually going through it, it is so much harder! I am so motivated for about the first 5 weeks then it starts going downhill, I just cant remember how long it is before you start going uphill again! well i dont want to go back to week one so will be continuing to use the support on month 2 for the time being as i can relate to what people are going through more. Regret smoking at the weekend so will NOT make same mistake!