Day 19, where am I?

Or better yet, WHO am I?

I am really not surprised having a bit of an identity crisis here. Well, its not really a crisis. Sometimes I feel like I am standing outside of myself, just observing. As mentioned before, I have never been an adult without smokes, so this is all really new to me.

The weekend craves were bad but nothing I couldn't handle with coming here :)

The inside of my nostrils is all crusty and gets on my nerves, I hope that's over with soon now! No coughs whatsoever! which is really neat.

Threw out my back past friday and could barely move. The worst thing is, I had such problems breathing (mid back) and THAT got really annoying. Demon said: might as well smoke if you can't breathe anyway.... LOL ;) he tries SO HARD, almost amusing!

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  • Well you are here among friends, who care about what happens to you, so be strong.

    I can relate to never having been an adult without smokes, wierd isn't it?

    Glad to hear your breathing is getting better too.

    It will all be better with time.

  • Well said NotMe, I had never thought like that, 53 and have smoked since I was 13, so does that excuse me if I now go through those horrible teenage tantrums.

    In fact my Mum always says how easy I was compared to my (never smoked) sister.

    I have had a cough since I was born it seems like, however it has gone now :p I have found I have really felt my breath this week, as in it sort of hits me, very dry, when I breathe in. A peculuar feeling I have never had before.

  • so they say, "Its never too late to have a happy childhood", what about, lets see what this being adult is all about LOL ;)

  • Well said NotMe, I had never thought like that, 53 and have smoked since I was 13, so does that excuse me if I now go through those horrible teenage tantrums.

    In fact my Mum always says how easy I was compared to my (never smoked) sister.

    I have had a cough since I was born it seems like, however it has gone now :p I have found I have really felt my breath this week, as in it sort of hits me, very dry, when I breathe in. A peculuar feeling I have never had before.

    I can TOTALLY relate to this. I always cough, morning noon and night, and through the night. I was always clearing my throat, i put it down to having a cold weeks/months ago. But in the last week I haven't coughed at all.. amazing! and the dry breathing, that's a new thing for me too.

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