The week that was....

[nsd_user663_8492]

Well, time for an update....and what a week that was. I now know what people mean when talking about these terrible 3's!!!

This time last week I felt absolutely great...then woke up and felt like I got run over by a steam train, its been rather horrible all the way through the past 6/7 days to be honest. Tired, anxious, depressed, unable to sleep, irritable and angry with the world! Strangely enough with a subconscious feeling of loneliness!

Anyways I can feel myself coming out at the other end now! Still tiny ups and downs on the emotions front but on the whole on the up! And focussed enough to realise the loneliness sensation is in regards to me no longer being "best friends" with cigarettes and coming to terms with they can never be my "friend" again!

Quite obvious really, they were with me for over 11 years, through the good times and bad...they have always been there! ALWAYS! When I felt bad they made me feel "better". When I was sad they "cheered me up". When I was stressed they "calmed me down". When I was happy they "celebrated with me"!

All deceitful lies in hindsight...but an addicts mind has no concept of these lies...only truth!

Anyway, Now they're gone! My best friend will never come back ( i hope), my crutch during tough times in life will no longer be there, my pal who keeps me entertained whilst bored has disappeared! and my mind reacted in the only way it knew how...a kind of mourning period I guess? I'm no psychologist but it makes so much sense really.

So onwards, lets see what else this ex-addiction has got to throw at me, no matter what - I will overcome it! With all your help!

The Road goes on Forever and the party never ends!

[nsd_user663_4990]

You will adjust, when you build smoking into your daily routine and the addiction of nicotine keeps you maintaining the fixes for all manner of 'reasons', you are bound to miss them a bit when you quit. Thankfully as time goes on the separation from smoking gets easier, and the thoughts of them don't dominate your thoughts nearly as much.

At 7 months now, I get the odd passing thought about smoking, but its so off-the-radar now that they don't even get me wanting one. I just don't desire them no more, and if i'm stressed or bored, or if i've got something really on my mind, i don't need a smoke to get through it. You will get to this point too, and beyond where I am .. perhaps even easier again.

Main thing for you is.. stick at it and its great you are seeing smoking for what it is now.

keep going and good luck.

j

[nsd_user663_8222]

you say its your friend but its not, its hard but do you really want to die of cancer, or sit there with oxygen stapped to you, waiting too die. harsh i know but true,

congrats on stopping!

[nsd_user663_3728]

Hi David

Oh dear sorry you suffered the terrible threes but so pleased you're coming out the other end now

Already you've seen smoking for what it is an addiction plain and simple and that's great

Now you can go along the road nowing that at the other end is total freedom

Love

Marg xx

[nsd_user663_8469]

My quit buddy ... I am a rubbish buddy!!

Hey Dave,

Sounds like you are coping better?? Sorry i haven't replied, been a tough week for me. It sounds a little like you are reaching the place I am in ... I sure understand the "loneliness" bit ... see the thread I just posted "who am I"??!!

I hope sleep is getting better ... I will send you a reply in a bit!!

Keep going my friend ... we will win!!

Jodi

xx

[nsd_user663_8492]

hi everyone and thankyou all.

I had my first smoking dream last night. It was pleasant as I was smoking but the smoke itself was overwhelming (like a fire) and tasted and smelled noxious!

I honestly thought I'd failed my quit this morning, woke up with a taste of smoke in my mouth, it was subconcious, it soon disappeared. Still had a craving though until I realised I was smoking with Richard Madeley (of Richard & Judy fame)...then realised it was a dream! :rolleyes:

I have had everything thrown at me this week...im going to buy myself a hard hat as I think a Kitchen Sink will be coming my way soon!

Still going strong though!