Reached day 3 today and woke feeling great - no 15 min wake up , jumped out of bed quite spritely and went about breakfast and getting ready to take my fiancee to the airport.
Got there ok, said goodbye to her and my daughter, went to fill up and was so proud of myself for not buying any fags when I filled up with fuel.
Then on the way home was looking for my mobile charger and came accross an old fag packet in the armrest, and there was a cigarette in the packet. :eek:
Instead of tossing it out the window , I thought right , I am going to prove to myself that I have got you beat this time so smoked some of it and chucked it out.
Now I am sitting here with the pangs back and well p1553d off with myself.
I already felt so much better even after only two days.
It had been hard to stay fag free but my fiancee has been really supportive.
I felt like I had achieved something great and now I feel like I am back to square one and have wasted the last couple of days and let myself and my fiancee down.
I knew this was going to be a bad day for me with her going away and not being there to support me through the first few days, now proved myself right.
Not happy but I am going to forget this relapse and remind myself at every moment that i get a pang that THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS JUST ONE CIGARETTE!