Day three gone... horribly wrong

Reached day 3 today and woke feeling great - no 15 min wake up , jumped out of bed quite spritely and went about breakfast and getting ready to take my fiancee to the airport.

Got there ok, said goodbye to her and my daughter, went to fill up and was so proud of myself for not buying any fags when I filled up with fuel.

Then on the way home was looking for my mobile charger and came accross an old fag packet in the armrest, and there was a cigarette in the packet. :eek:

Instead of tossing it out the window , I thought right , I am going to prove to myself that I have got you beat this time so smoked some of it and chucked it out.

Now I am sitting here with the pangs back and well p1553d off with myself.

I already felt so much better even after only two days.

It had been hard to stay fag free but my fiancee has been really supportive.

I felt like I had achieved something great and now I feel like I am back to square one and have wasted the last couple of days and let myself and my fiancee down.

I knew this was going to be a bad day for me with her going away and not being there to support me through the first few days, now proved myself right.

Not happy :( but I am going to forget this relapse and remind myself at every moment that i get a pang that THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS JUST ONE CIGARETTE!

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  • Feel for you Jules, know you were feeling upbeat and fighting fit, but respect your quit and don't test the strength of it too soon, a few puffs has made you realise how easy it is to break the quit you've got going and maybe kicked you in the arse a bit. Stay strong and remember never take another puff.

    And for goodness sake, don't prove anything to yourself for at least a decade.

    M

  • Thanks MAH

    Really feel positive about quitting now, unlike countless previous attempts and have found you guys on this forum a great inspiration.

    Cheers

    Joolls

  • Hey Joolls....you sound really sorry you did that.....no use beating yourself up....just start again;)......it's really worth the effort....keep going and good luck.

  • Thanks MAH

    Really feel positive about quitting now, unlike countless previous attempts and have found you guys on this forum a great inspiration.

    Cheers

    Joolls

    This forum is the best Joolls - keep posting, keep reading, many of us have little phrases that have inspired us, one of mine is Never take another puff, had it on a post it above the kettle and on the pc at work.

    Woofmang is very good too.

    Keep your head down it really does get easier.

    M

  • Hi Joolls :D

    I'm sorry you had that little slip after seeing your fiance and daughter off at the airport after you were feeling so upbeat about it

    But you sound even more determined now

    Keep posting, reading and most important of all smoke free we'll all be here if you need us

    Love

    Marg xx

  • Hey jools honey - you gave your body two more days smoke free than it would have had!!!

    Go YOU!!

    next time it might be 4 days, or 17 days or even the time you manage for from here on in - either way any day with no cigarette is better than one with xxxxxx

    Hang on in there - you are doing just fine

    xxxxxxx

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